I made a mistake. This blog is to record all beautiful things / thought / people I experienced / met.
From now onward, I do my best to spread good and positive messages out!
Hee-hee!
Read 2 comic books called 120年的初恋 and 已逝时光中的哀之花, recall the beauty of love...
Beautiful~ hahahahaah
Nov 16, 2014
Nov 12, 2014
I am here because I am irritated
Nov 12, 2014
Woah, it is almost a year since I wrote the last post. There are a lot of changes...
The L left. Official announcement is he resigns because he wants to further study. The insider new is his employee evaluation is below expectation and as a result, retrenchment happens... or perhaps choice to resign is given...
I have been travelling almost every month since Dec 2013 - Seoul, Beijing, Shanghai, Jakarta, Bali, Bintan, Batam, Bandung, Yogyakarta, Rendang Island, Genting Highlands, Bangkok, Perth, Adelaide, Melbourne, Sydney, Manila, Taipei... Time flies in travelling for business and leisure... Am I happy? I feel being superior initially. Thereafter, exhaustion is swallowing me. Sadness comes when I am alone in Yogya in mid-autumn festival. It is the very first time I don't celebrate the day with my family together. Skype-ing with them barbecuing and gathering happily makes me wonder is this the life I want to pursue at that time...
The answer is half-half. I don't regret to whatever decision I made. I don't regret being utilized by company. It is a recognition to capability. I appreciate it. What I need to strive is balancing off the work life and personal life. As people say, you are responsible to your life. Don't shift blame to anyone or anything incl. work when you overlook your family, friends and other important thing / person in your life. You should know and weigh what is most important in your life. I have the answer.
I strive hard for career. However, I draw a clear line now. Nothing should affect my family and personal time. You can lose job but you should not lose your life. It's not a big deal finding a new job. It is a BIG deal if you lose your family, friends and life.
Being optimistic is a must to achieve success... I am hypnotizing myself.
Tried para-sailing, climbed Sydney's harbor bridge and nude swimming (OMG)... I don't try magic mushroom because I think of a friend who really cares about me... I always don't mean to hurt him but end up, I hurt him again. Perhaps it is not as bad as first time? I don't know. I only know my timidness to new relationship stop me from moving on. Sometimes, I am upset why does he give up so "easily"? Then I will remind myself he had been waiting for me about a year if I remember correctly... Anyway, it doesn't matter anymore... Noticed he is doing good or even better whenever I am not with him (bitter smile)...
Back to the main topic why I am here today, it is because I am totally mad at a lot of ad-hoc tasks which need to be completed at the same time is given to me on top of my load of works. All these works can only be done if I do overtime everyday... Guess do I do overtime?
I will work hard like a horse only if my hard work is recognized. For this, I must say my former manager is good in leading people. At least, to me, I like and respect her even though others said she is demanding (though I don't feel it this way at all. I feel it is kinda perfectionism which I have similar thought. Perhaps it is because we are both Aries). From her, I really learn A LOT. I am grateful I had been working for her.
What is my next solutions? I am thinking wild recently. I need some courage to take it. Sigh... If I don't start it, it will never happen, correct?
I hate being pessimistic. It sounds like a L. Phew!
All the best to myself. I achieve what I want.
Woah, it is almost a year since I wrote the last post. There are a lot of changes...
The L left. Official announcement is he resigns because he wants to further study. The insider new is his employee evaluation is below expectation and as a result, retrenchment happens... or perhaps choice to resign is given...
I have been travelling almost every month since Dec 2013 - Seoul, Beijing, Shanghai, Jakarta, Bali, Bintan, Batam, Bandung, Yogyakarta, Rendang Island, Genting Highlands, Bangkok, Perth, Adelaide, Melbourne, Sydney, Manila, Taipei... Time flies in travelling for business and leisure... Am I happy? I feel being superior initially. Thereafter, exhaustion is swallowing me. Sadness comes when I am alone in Yogya in mid-autumn festival. It is the very first time I don't celebrate the day with my family together. Skype-ing with them barbecuing and gathering happily makes me wonder is this the life I want to pursue at that time...
The answer is half-half. I don't regret to whatever decision I made. I don't regret being utilized by company. It is a recognition to capability. I appreciate it. What I need to strive is balancing off the work life and personal life. As people say, you are responsible to your life. Don't shift blame to anyone or anything incl. work when you overlook your family, friends and other important thing / person in your life. You should know and weigh what is most important in your life. I have the answer.
I strive hard for career. However, I draw a clear line now. Nothing should affect my family and personal time. You can lose job but you should not lose your life. It's not a big deal finding a new job. It is a BIG deal if you lose your family, friends and life.
Being optimistic is a must to achieve success... I am hypnotizing myself.
Tried para-sailing, climbed Sydney's harbor bridge and nude swimming (OMG)... I don't try magic mushroom because I think of a friend who really cares about me... I always don't mean to hurt him but end up, I hurt him again. Perhaps it is not as bad as first time? I don't know. I only know my timidness to new relationship stop me from moving on. Sometimes, I am upset why does he give up so "easily"? Then I will remind myself he had been waiting for me about a year if I remember correctly... Anyway, it doesn't matter anymore... Noticed he is doing good or even better whenever I am not with him (bitter smile)...
Back to the main topic why I am here today, it is because I am totally mad at a lot of ad-hoc tasks which need to be completed at the same time is given to me on top of my load of works. All these works can only be done if I do overtime everyday... Guess do I do overtime?
I will work hard like a horse only if my hard work is recognized. For this, I must say my former manager is good in leading people. At least, to me, I like and respect her even though others said she is demanding (though I don't feel it this way at all. I feel it is kinda perfectionism which I have similar thought. Perhaps it is because we are both Aries). From her, I really learn A LOT. I am grateful I had been working for her.
What is my next solutions? I am thinking wild recently. I need some courage to take it. Sigh... If I don't start it, it will never happen, correct?
I hate being pessimistic. It sounds like a L. Phew!
All the best to myself. I achieve what I want.
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