i am so sad now, but where are you?

i failed my test; you are the first person i wanna see... but you are unavailable. i am very confused, frustrated, upset; different kind of feelings mixed up... but you don't know.

i wanna see you...
that is only thing i wanna do now.

*do u know, 我们是不被祝福的...

蔡旻佑-我想要说

看着右手
被撕裂的伤口
爱好像曾经停留

而我左手
按下号码之后
那首属于我的歌不再播送

默写你的爱过
坦承自己脆弱
对白怎么说
表情才不难过

我想要说 我想要说
如果没有了你
我该如何往下走

那一秒钟
有没有发现我倔强里的问候

怎么劝我放手
在这一切之后

整夜的风
冷得我手颤抖
你在温暖的那头
熟悉路口
再一次的路过
等在那角落的人已不是我

怎么劝我放手
在这一切

FAILED

really hate "it"! i can't believe that! the worst is i can't check the correct answers! arghhh, never mind, i will work hard! ONE DAY i will get my license!!!

the days

*Friday
i went back to hometown alone. i rejected friend's invitation of fetching her brother's car as i don't really like to wait for and trouble other.

it is horrible to take cab alone... i discourage female taking cab alone.

*Saturday
i woke up at 5.30am to prepare for Sucen's "traditional marriage ritual". after had had her wedding lunch at Segamat, i reached home around 5 or 6 plus. it is exhausting.

in the night, i think i was too tired. i did a stupid thing, i dropped my Babe Ryan's birthday cake!!! fortunately it didn't out of shape. however, it did destroy its completeness. i was so sorry at that moment. it could be avoided.

*Sunday
i returned Singapore with my dear 4th sister and her boyfriend. it was a hot day, i almost fainted. (*v*)

*Monday
the first day of the terrible week, i had my 2 tests in the morning; hopefully i can pass them. (*v*)

*irritating
recently irritated by some unavoidable issues. really hope to smack them... but it is not allowed. i wonder how could it happen in this way?! it is really funny to me.

*happy-ing
Nat is my "xiaomei" now hahaha, i am "dajie" in NUS. it is so interesting as i am xiao ken to my yanhong dajie yaa. hahaha..

i am pleased to know you and i would not regret at all.

it is really unlike me

u have fully occupied in my mind. bleahhh.. i am thinking about u, talking about u. i found that i am so naggy. fortunately my dear girl was not irritated by me. i did silly thing for u, ignore others' view as i just want to show you the best one. it is so unbelievable. i can't recognise myself le... (><)

"希望"是一句最奢侈的话

change everything, every plan just because of one word "Hope"...

i am so sick about it...

however, as your wish, i will do.

300 No Prisoners No Mercy!

Based on the epic graphic novel by Frank Miller, "300" is a ferocious retelling of the ancient Battle of Thermopylae in which King Leonidas (Gerard Butler) and 300 Spartans fought to the death against Xerxes and his massive Persian army. Facing insurmountable odds, their valor and sacrifice inspire all of Greece to units against their Persian enemy, drawing a line in the sand for democracy.
http://300themovie.warnerbros.com/

i watched it last night. what i can say is, it is worth it. although it has some redundant scenes, overall it is a good movie especially the war scenes and description of a life of a Spartan; their destiny, duty and honor.

from the movie, i get a lesson too; traitors can't be forgiven., betrayal should be punished.

i am so touched to their spirit. (>~<)

you are mine!

fun

*i learnt something fun and interesting tonight.. i think i am addicted. it is not a good sign? maybe. :p so i will control myself. i can hear somebody is mourning. ha ha

happy-ing

*i am not alone; i am willing to gamble with all my bets. i may get hurt eventually, but at least i do try. my feeling is sweet now.

xing fu

*it may or may not be my blessing, i will treat it as usual as possible. it is not easy as it has moved me a lot.

to future, i have no confidence at all. to myself, i have my own plans. to you, i try to trust you and hope that you will not disappoint me. (or i may disappoint you?) ha ha

my guardian angel

i am too slow, i may overlooked what you had done for me. i wonder will you be when you told me you want to be my guardian angel. i am willing to bet and surprisingly i feel that i have a high chance to win. i am slow, let's take it step by step. don't rush. you should know that sometimes we need to be patient.

* Patience by Take That is recommended

i'm sorry, i don't mean it

i do not want to hurt you. i swear, i want to protect you until the end of my life. nothing is more important than you to me. when i hurt you, you should know that my heart is bleeding too. i can't stop my tears falling down, it must because i love you too much. i admit, i am too careless and inconsiderate. i should make a better arrangement. undeniably, i know that what you did is for my own good. therefore, i am so upset that i hurt you, make you so worry about me. "if i could, would you let me amend the fault i did?" that is what i think when you hang up my phone.

thank you for forgiving me, you would not know how importance it is to me. since i was young, i promised myself that i do not want to do anything which can agitate you. i will give up anything for you and i have kept this promise. after this lesson, i will do better and better to make you happy forever. your smile is my blessing, my source of happiness. may Buddha bless me, giving you a longevity lifetime and allowing me to give you and dad all my wealth and love.

*May Buddha Bless Me*

Bugis Gathering

bought by dear yanhong dajie (^~^) from Japan. it is so kawaiii!!! can you see the cat? it is superb cuteeee!!! and i love red too!! our moment @ Bugis. first time none of us are late haha, worth it to celebrate!!! cheers!!! \(^0^)/
[sleeping-look ken, sweet smile Eileen and beautiful dajie]
we are pleased to receive the pouch o! muack here!!! (=^3^=)

we had our gathering after the CNY. the venue is V8 cafe, it is a very good location for gathering. besides, the food is delicious and the service is good. we will have our gathering again at this cafe.

专属天使

it brightens my morning...

Pisces, a horoscope that i detest because of a betrayal of friendship, gives me a bad impression. now, it is changing my stereotyping gradually. however, i still do not trust this horoscope, let's wait and see the next happening. i am looking forward to it.

*even though it is sweet, i still feel sad... i know i am healing. give me some time, i will get well soon. cheers! YYzz

break the promise

i really don't like it. i don't like to break a promise. that is my fault, i should not give my word so easily. now, i broke it.

what goes around, comes around...

today somebody broke his promise too.

that is called karma. i love it! may Buddha bless me!! ^^

that is the answer

finally i solved a 10-years question. i am relieved. it is not as hard as what i expect. but i can't control my tears, my heart is breaking. may Buddha bless me, this is my last heart pain to it.

a perfect guy

what is a perfect guy to you?

no drinking, no smoking and no gambling? never think about flirting around? plus romantic, humor and generous to you?

you may ask, does this kind of guy really exist in this cold-hearted world? well, maybe. it depends on whether you have the luck to meet him... ^^

then next step you should consider, is he the one to you?... hmmm


*my mobile phone was damage (>n<) it dropped into the water (sobbing) why don't it wait for the month of June? i am going to shift your heavy duty la... now i lost all my contacts...

i am going crazy

i am worrying. i may fall into trap, where i may get into a big trouble...

i am such a fool (arghhhhhhh...)

*sweet sweet sweet, filled in a superb sweet moment... (12:31am)

*i am going to buy a new hp to you, i can't bear the moments when i can't reach you at all. it scared me. i can't stand it anymore, mum. (9:55pm)

*sorry sis, i am not purposely to do so. i was frustrated to issue on above... but you called in such a perfect timing yaa... (9:25pm)

*fell asleep,... if nobody will feel sad, i wish i never wake up anymore... (6:30pm)

bleahhh, unlucky

thanks for that urgent report, thanks for the clever boss, thanks for everything that screwed up it... ha-ha... Be positive, may It give me the sign telling me it is not the time? may Buddha bless me...

coughing coughing... see doctor? donnnn't want (i deserve it, lalala)

Angela.Z & Gary.C

Angela Zhang (张韶涵)'s 不痛

[00:55.68]谎言让人太陶醉,
[00:58.83]陶醉在你给的世界,

[01:03.62]我不想不愿不去
[01:05.15]承认我的执著,
[01:07.04]怕不知不觉无法
[01:08.69]忍住眼泪不留,
[01:10.37]是爱伤害了彼此的自由,

[01:17.40]你不看不听不说
[01:19.12]为什麼要离开我,
[01:21.06]我不哭不笑
[01:22.69]只剩下沉默,
[01:27.46]带著我的骄傲高飞远走


& Gary (曹格)'s 背叛

[00:42.98]爱
[00:45.47]只剩下无奈
[00:50.89]我
[00:52.74]一直不愿再去猜

[01:12.46]紧紧相依的心如何
[01:16.13]Say goodbye
[01:19.59]你比我清楚还要我说明白

[01:26.27]爱太深会让人疯狂的勇敢

[01:41.48]把手放开不问一句
[01:48.29]当作最后一次对你的溺爱
[01:54.70]冷冷清清淡淡今后都不管
[02:02.60]只要你能愉快

recently...

i couldn't do my paper... at first i was sad now i am numb.

poor result? whatever...

*a very bad sign...

supposedly i am out from the house, having project discussion with my teammates. they cancelled it suddenly. it is very... (- -)

*this time, i am not so as "on" as before... didn't well-prepared like my friends... bleahhh...

going out later, may catch a movie; i am worried about my sore throat. it may spoil everything but leave the embarrassment to me. may Buddha bless me, please don't happen in cinema...

*a complicated thing can be simplified.

sick

cough cough cough cough cough... pale look, reddish nose, listless eyes; i look so sick!

now it is worse. after had my lunch, cough was coming. i vomited. haiz... waste of food...


*last night i studied till 4plus. my friend didn't break promise, accompanied me. i was surprised. i didn't expect that promise would be kept. thanks a lot. again, i was touched.