Showing posts with label sadness. Show all posts
Showing posts with label sadness. Show all posts

Aug 1, 2013

2.8.2013

Cut queue auntie makes me wonder what is politeness. I let her go because I don't want to be like her.

A script on movie prelude said don't want ppl look down on him... I wonder do you think highly of yourself first? I always do.

A fat and normal look (sorry) lady ran towards the lift that is closing. She is smiling. I wonder, what makes me unhappy? I was a happy fat girl...

Dec 9, 2010

Suffocation

How many days it is after 4th May, the most painful day?

I can't remember...

How long I don't talk to the most hatred, you know who?

I can't remember too...

What I can remember is, Christmas is around the corner but you are not around anymore...

It is totally awful...

Jan 7, 2010

ROAR Laptop!

7 jan 2010

I get my laptop back! *ROAR*

but I lost all important data! *ROAR*


Dec 25, 2009

残忍

人也好,事也好,都不重要

伤口不肯结痂

腐臭的脓血时不时提醒着我它的不完整

嘲笑我的懦弱

生病了 =)

原来我一直都在生病

这场犹如梦魇般的传染病才是现实

痛苦持续蔓延

承受折磨

无意间

连累了不想伤害的人

对不起,不要原谅我这个不正常不能给你正常的

要记得哦

要笑!

再痛,也要笑!!

24 December 2009

To you only,

Sorry and keep smiling.


Dec 23, 2009

Dec 21, 2009

221209

221209 1552

bad mood

abcdefghijklmnop...

bad mood ^ ^

super bad mood ^ ^

Jul 30, 2009

放下

073009

mood swing...

nobody is there

no one would be there for me

i am nothing to them

they have their own life...

move on, babe...

let it be...

leave it, then you gain it...

my biggest weakness is always this.

i shall be IItachi Uchiha, then i will be as perfect as him?

a crazy thought ha...

Jul 14, 2009

If today was your last day

上次你离开,我很难过。你也是吧?我想你不可能会。

这次你离开,我不难过。你也是吧?不懂怎样难过了

你mama说我变聪明了。你说呢?=D

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In the morning, I keep thinking of what mum told me: Get a BF

Now, I only think of my dad...

I think, I am really a damsel in distress now XD

*********************************

Do u wanna be my bf? Ha!

Jun 30, 2009

Think Positively, Prepare Completely

在公司,要和善。笑,是必要的

在家里,要融洽。笑,是应该的

和朋友,要享受。笑,也是要的

可是,我开始。。。无法笑了

结果一直是暧昧不明

做CT scan了

没事啊

可是情况不允许我们放心

又做了blood test

还有gastroscopy

接下来呢?

一个接一个的结果

来一个了又等下一个

好累

自己吓自己

好累

我不想笑了

Damn it! We would NEVER ever give in!

May Buddha Always Bless Him

Jun 7, 2009

不正常的我

从小,为了成为最好的,为了成为父母的骄傲

考试要在一二三名内;比赛不是第一就是要第二。优等,特优,头衔,奖状,奖金

得到最后的胜利就是努力追逐最好的犒赏,也学习了如何苦中作乐、尽情享受追逐的过程

我总是全力以赴,也总是势在必得

“只有我不要的,没有我得不到”

说来不好意思,可这就是我从小到大,从小学直到进大学都一直保持的乐观态度

不懂为什么我会聊到这个,这并不是重点

重点是,我在追逐的过程中可能无意间伤害了一些人

我不会为我的行为辩解

我也不懂如何辩解

懂我的人不需要我解释

但是

我还是要向你(们)说声

抱歉

不是不想给

只是我太笨

我知道不是每个人都有耐性

对着一个如此不正常的我(无奈)

很抱歉

我最不想伤害的人就是你(们)

或许我们不会再联络

我还是希望你能快乐

你应该要多笑一些

May 30, 2009

痞子英雄

“我们不要开始;你的起点在英雄那,不在我这。” - 陈在天vs陈琳

“我知道你心里在想什么。只要在你难过,在你想哭时,不要把我推开,就够了。” - 吴英雄vs陈琳

“我不值得你这样,因为。。。我一直在等她。” - 陈在天vs陈琳

“如果是家人的话,谁都不可以先离开。” - 何小玫vs陈在天

“我会保护你的。我再也不要让我在乎的人离开我了。” - 陈在天vs篮西英

Nice song recommendations:

Perfect Stranger

放逐爱情 

无赖正义

********************To Remember*******************************

Had a good chat with you

I am unchanged, you said

No matter how much I change, internally or externally

I am still the same when I am with you, you said

I knew you praisin me 

but, from past till now

I am still unchanged

when everyone is changing

is moving on

everyone... 

You should move on, too, you said

I am moving on

Ya, but you left one, you said

“你的执着帮助你成功,但它也困住你了”, you said

Perfectionism 

Perseverance

Pathetic?

I never regret any decisions I made

Only once

Cauz' of fear of unexpectation 

Most painful 

That's enough 

Now I am fearless

If I have one more chance

I will leave no more regret anymore

Never

note: Listening "Perfect Stranger"

Apr 21, 2009

Motorbike Robbery

Happening

Wendy, Candy, Marcus and I went to Causeway Point for gift collection. For the sake of Genting ticket booking, we went into JB. Then 3rd BIL went to meet his friend for a while. It is already around 830pm when we finally reach the destination for our dinner. 

Typical nasi brani embedded with fragrant beef and chicken rendang, BBQ and ice kacang enriched with a thick layer of coco powder, this is a real sinful bouquet to me! While we were enjoying it, I saw a waitress screaming with a frightened expression. Looking towards the direction she pointed at, a motorbike with 2 persons swiftly drove off. Behind it, a woman was lying down on the floor. The first word popped out from my mouth at the first moment is "SHIT!!!"

A robbery happened in front of me! 

Although her property is safe, she got a slight injury on her elbow, it is still Ridiculous! The robbers are really too much! The road where they tried to commit crime is just besides our hawker centre! It is really too much! 

WBD

Conclusion: JB is really not suitable for living... (sigh)

Apr 1, 2009

over-estimation

I overestimated myself
I am not that heartless as I thought...

Job offer and interviews come in a lump sum

on the 2nd day of work

I made the decision

as I told myself I would do so when the opportunity comes

But

I felt bad

when I accepted it

Sorry to E.gal, 

I know you understand my dilemma

Sorry to conscience

If there is the way to survive

If there is the way to succeed

If there is the way to achieve my ultimate dreams

I will leave you behind

Eventhough my heart is in a deep pain

May Buddha forgive me

Dec 2, 2008

我毕业了

2008.12.2,下午3pm,我将我大学生涯里,或许也是人生中?的最后一张考卷交了出去。我毕业了。

将考卷交出的那一刹那的感觉是无奈-时间不够充裕,答案没写得很完美。

接着,我开始感到开心,喜悦的泡泡不停冒了出来。。。与此同时,却又有着百感交集的矛盾。我终于毕业了;古人是十年寒窗苦读,现代人是二十年不分昼夜分秒必争的与时间,自己和世界竞赛。我完成了我人生中的其中一部分-education,我有松了一口气的感觉。我终于把人生中最重要也最耗时的一项任务完成了。I completed one task in my life. 当然往后的further study or self-development 又另当别论。失落吗?那是免不了的。害怕失去方向,害怕往后孤军奋战的日子,当然也有没好好把握什么什么的一些小失落。。。但是那又如何?!人活着就一定会有大大小小的挫折和磨难,反复不定的情绪波动,没再怕的!至少我不怕了。^^

将要迈向我人生中另一个新的里程碑,另一个人生的挑战;for sure, it would be tougher than the previous. However, I would strive up for it, for myself and for my beloved. 

Now, I have more time to look around; planning better for myself and the people surrounding me. Compared to the past, I feel that I have more missions to be done. Though they are challenging, I am looking forward the day of "conquering" them (he he he...). Moreover, I am not tied by the study anymore. So, I am sure I would be able to fully utilise my days and times to do what I want to do (now, let's game first he he he...) I am sure the schedule would function well on this time round.

whisper: hey, I am graduate. I am really graduate

I must say something to myself, 
"Thank you,  thank you for your perseverance. Well Done."

Good Bye NUS (National University of Singapore). Though you are the top university in Singapore, I am sorry, Singapore Polytechnic would be always my favorite. 

Note: 今天早上没有刺耳的闹铃声没有扰人清梦的吵杂声,我是笑着醒来的。可惜忘了我做了什么梦。。。^^不过,是个很开心的梦就是了。。。

Nov 13, 2008

if we can't be together forever?

there is a famour slogan, "不在乎天长地久只在乎曾经拥有" i used to be its supporter. but today, let me despise it for a moment...

this is my last study week in NUS. we had a gathering, taking pictures non-stop, wishing to keep the moments in our memories. on the bus, gal was quite sad, telling us she had the urge to cry. i didn't. even i was, i wouldn't express, and i cldn't, especially in front of nic! wa-ha-ha...  

also, today my parents left after hugging, kissing and saying "take care" to me. the whole flat suddenly becomes silent, only left my sister and me. loneliness comes too fast and too strong...

if we can't be together forever, why we should know each other? forking out our feeling for a short period of time? if we can't be together forever, why we should love each other? to taste the pain of departure? 

in fact i know the answer. no matter how pain it was, i would still get myself in the swamp for that sweetest part of misery. so, what i can do? i choose to pretend. pretend we are not that close, pretend i don't love you, pretend i am not sad at all after the hurt ^^ cheers! 

《自寻烦恼》
烦恼本无形,悠然在心中
若无真心扰,忧愁自飘渺

Oct 30, 2008

I found "you"

Google Chrome is really something.
I could find whatever information I am looking for. 
As long as I key in the correct keywords...
I keyed in.
And I found it surprisingly. 
I almost cry it out. 
Thanks for technology.
Everything is online. 
No one could hide. 
No one could be forgotten.

The pain last forever. 
Never mind, 
Let it be

Oct 16, 2008

i lost my laptop after 5 months i lost my digital camera.

i always aware of the stealing issue spreading over the campus. in this semester, i never leave my laptop unattendable.

Murphy's Law broadly states, "if anything can go wrong, it will." It is also cited as: "Whatever can go wrong will go wrong, and at the worst possible time, in the worst possible way".

this time, i left my hand fully occupied with sandwiches and a cup of hot milo again. same as that time i lost my digital camera, assisting my mum handling my nephew and his baby chair.

because of my carelessness, i lost most important tools in my life.

if i am doing an analysis about the external factors affecting me, they would be:
1. physical exhaustion
2. mentally carelessness
3. distraction on external features surrounding me
4. timing constraint

policeman asked me the value of the laptop. the value? to them, they want to know its monetary value. 1.9+K about 2k. but to me, it is priceless.

it contains numerous of memorable, valuable information and materials

the most heartbreaking is those videos and pictures of my family. it makes me out of breath whenever i think of them
then the favorites!
and the relevant information in my life...

laptop is the tool, just like the digital camera. what they contain are more important to me.

mum said, po cai xiao zai. wen said, fate ends. but i would say, "ken go and die"

anyway, mum and wen, thanks. again, i have to learn to let go. and i am telling myself, perhaps, it is Buddha's hint - i should let you go.

nat, eileen, nic, jo, yenteng etc thanks for concern.

mum, i would do what you wish me to do...

Oct 1, 2008

first and last

011008-1125pm

好开心

朋友送我一首歌

萧敬腾的原谅我

好久没那么开心了

开心得掉眼泪

一直不会停

看来会开心很久。。。

希望不要太久

不然

我怕我很难再开心了

Sep 14, 2008

;>______<;

送机是史上超级无敌最“猪”的事!!!!!!