Dessert's Misery

excitement? ha-ha... Would you prefer dessert or main course?

When you are sick of main course, sweet dessert could give you the excitement. The urge makes you eating dessert for a period of the time. But in the end, you still need main course. Dessert is not essential... When people decide to leave the dessert away, do they think of the feeling of the dessert? Been abandoned...

Penat

tanah buruk dengan keluarga bapa

melawat pada tahun baru cina saja

nenek berada

tiada datuk

tiada datuk luar

tiada nenek luar

baik dgn keluarga ibu

tiada rasa kini

tiada lawat negara lain

nak pergi ke South Africa untuk berlian

terjumpa Roonie

"bukan la~"

boleh picit

boleh kena muka

cakap lebih banyak daripada dahulu

menjelaskan tetapi tak cukup

Asia Pacific Customs-Business Dialogue

01 Aug 09

Asia Pacific Customs-Business Dialogue (ACBD)

9am - 530pm

Grand Copthorne Waterfront Hotel, Grand Ballroom - Level 4

1) saw a manly Japanese guy who is tall and most importantly, eyebrows were shaved! wahaha

2) spilled a glass of orange (great piece of the day)

3) under-dressed (damn)

4) strong air-con (I thought there is a rise on electricity?)

5) so-so food

6) detailed documents

7) interesting presentations

conclusion: I would rather overdressed, next time

放下

073009

mood swing...

nobody is there

no one would be there for me

i am nothing to them

they have their own life...

move on, babe...

let it be...

leave it, then you gain it...

my biggest weakness is always this.

i shall be IItachi Uchiha, then i will be as perfect as him?

a crazy thought ha...

If today was your last day

上次你离开，我很难过。你也是吧？我想你不可能会。

这次你离开，我不难过。你也是吧？不懂怎样难过了

你mama说我变聪明了。你说呢？=D

*********************************

In the morning, I keep thinking of what mum told me: Get a BF

Now, I only think of my dad...

I think, I am really a damsel in distress now XD

*********************************

Do u wanna be my bf? Ha!

我想回家

心情很沉重

我很累，不想笑，不想说话，不想entertain，不想理任何人，什么都不想！

我想回去

我想回家

May Buddha stop his suffering;

Let me be him, I am willing to bear it for his sake since I am already sick of living =)

TOT

...TOTOTOTOTOTOTOTOTOT...

Love OT

but my body don't like

Love challenges

but 1 day of 24 hours is insufficient

Love money

but my spirit desires for a life enriched by love, family and friends

*Friend is going to London... so envy

Will I visit in the future? Yes if you pay me the air ticket...

So envy having rich daddy... ahahaha...

*Outings

Sometimes, it is boring to stay at home

Sometimes, it is boring to spend money outside the home

Sometimes, I am bored to everything

*Ceremony

There is a free dinner and dance event after commencement, shall I attend?

*Family

occupied my mind, always

快乐可以很简单

There is only one moon to the Planet earth, so no such nonsense: 外国的月亮比较圆.

Geek: from the standpoint of astronomy, it may be possible...

Noob: aiya, it is just an analogy lol... you may gain more "what you want" if you go overseas. Don't you hear of this idiom, 读万卷书不如行万里路, noob lei you!

Geek: ...

A word from the one you concern worth more than millions

Geek: Honestly, it is too theorectical and unrealistic...

Noob: (headache) Romantic, do you know this term? As long as you care, you will be happy even it is just a simple word. You noober!

Geek: ...

Luckily I finished my drama series

Luckily I stayed late in the night

Hohohohohohoho....

note: sick dao fannnnnzzzz

Side effects

Cycle of Illness

Stage 1: Sore Throat

Stage 2: Coughing

Stage 3: Sniffing

Stage 3.5: Running nose

Stage 4: Nose block

Stage 4.5: feverish

Stage 5: Lying on bed

Dman it, now is progressing till Stage 4!

And Damn again, put on weight!!! and height?!!

ahaha...

善意的警告？

She said, your priority shouldn't be there

I concur. 

She said, you should focus on IT. 

I concur too. 

She asked, then why you are doing that?

As I didn't receive any of IT. 

He told you about IT, right?

Ya, he did. (But never give me full picture even I asked cauz' he knows none of IT too)

I hope you know that you are here for IT. 

Yes, I am. (from the very first day)  

I also hope to see the result. 

Yes, I understand. (wholly, completely understand)

I start worrying when I see none of your news.

Yes, I know. (I asked for work, but he said he don't know how to give me IT, HOW?)

You shouldn't do it. 

I see. OK, I will only focus on IT now. (Both of them told me placing IT on the top of list, then do that when you have time. Apparently, I have time to do that when they didn't give me IT)

He should be the one doing his work, not passing to you. 

Oh, I see. (I don't know it. Even if I know, I don't think I can reject. You know, I am just a junior)

Oh my pretty, I concur totally. 

Wish you could understand my difficulty. 

Anyway, I would work it out! 

MOVE ON and GO FOR IT!

NO MERCY!!!

Fight for the Victory

OT till 10PM

Jun 2, 2009 

General Motors is filed to bankruptcy. 

Cryler does, too. 

What a "nice" Tuesday to the world economy

Am I possessive?

我的心情就像是坐云霄飞车般，忽高忽低的阴晴不定。

Dear MNC (you know who) still keeps me waiting. ^^ NVM, let's see who will be the final winner! "SoB"!

Dear part time (you know who too) delayed my time being together with my beloved. ^^ NVM, NVM, I am adult. NVM.

When I reached home, I was watching my beloved sleeping soundly with my little niece. It is a blessing; a peaceful mind is filled in me...

I was waiting for her waking up...

But I was sent to complete a task; a responsibility that shouldn't be mine but seemingly to be done by me only. It further killed my precious time. I know I am getting irritated. 

... Family Occasion's Merry

Why I can only see how busy my mum is and how messy my lodging that I cleaned in last night is?

(You are not in the right mood)

Why I gave in so easily to nephew's tantrums, why I felt sorry to him at that moment? 

(You are stupid)

Usually I supposed to enjoy playing computer games with my little cute nephew and niece. But now, I felt pissed only. 

I've had it enough =)

DBB said I am not possessive. But I doubt it. =( 

The mood is getting better after I mopped the floor. Perhaps, exercise is the best method to appease anger. Viewing those grand family pictures, enjoying our happy look, I know I am not angry anymore. 

Hope to share with you my pictures soon. 

Or I shall keep them privately as my talisman. 

A talisman to appease my sudden anger

因祸得福吗？

Cloudy Sunday
woke up around 9 plus, lying on the bed and staring at the ceiling
what I gonna do?
well, it couldn't help if I just keep doing so
crawled out from the blanket, opened the desktop (yuxx)
nobody gonna help, let's check it out myself
printer is getting crazy again (very hard to detect it as a recognized tool)
whose fault?
still indecisive...
should I or should not I?
I know I should but so many constraints hindered me
never mind, let's talk to my battery (to reach her, it is not an easy task manz - Jewelle is the cause)
"mum, ...." "......"
ha-ha... as you said, I just want to get a scolding from you.
OK, let's set off.
Time is around 1.
damn it, life is not always smooth.
Dell's Inspiron 1420 is not available.
I am in a loss again
what I gonna do?
luckily
Maliki recommended another 3 models
after consulted with Marcus
Acer wons again
though it don't have bluetooth
it fulfils my 3 requirements (net-surfing, report, Game!)
and most important
it has 3-years warranty and microsoft office software included in a very cheap price
OK (grinding teeth), buy it
time is around 1.23
money transaction is immediate
so "efficiently" the Challenger
but where is my laptop?
"well, you wait for a while. your laptop is setting up. you can collect it here (leading me to a corner) then, i go for my lunch first. OK?"
!!!
what I could say, then?
break your legs to stop you?
"OK."
wait wait wait wait... about 20 ++ min
"excuse me, may I check with you how's the progress of my laptop?"
"oh, we just get it and just start the set-up. please wait about 20 minutes."
(shocked) just get it?
"OK."
sat on the chair, and started STONEeeee
"hi, miss, it is already OK."
Hurray, my Buddha
stood up (though I want to jump) from the chair and walked (I wish I can run) towards the counter
another 10 + minutes on check-up...
when the IT staff is going to pack my laptop into the bag
"wait! let me check the shell, thanks"
"? oh ok... well, usually it is free of defective."
"to play safe." (no idea, just want to check)
in few minutes,
"... what is this?" (pointing on the crack at the edge of the top)
"erm.... (try to erase it) a dirt? erm, I think it is a scratch. let me get you a new one."
"hello, give me a new Acer Ex4630Z..."
well, what a BIG scracth
"OK, thank you."
another set-up time...
STONE on the chair, again
Time is about 3.
Haiz... half of my Sunday is goneeee
"sorry, miss, there is something wrong."
!!!
"what is it?"
"they gave me a wrong laptop to set-up. the model you want is unavailable now. could you come and collect tomo...OK?"
OK???
"I WANT REFUNDDDD!!!"
explanation continued till Maliki was back.
he went to understand what was happening
while I STONE again...
but in a helpless anger
my pathetic Sunday, you died in a misery
"yiying, I can get you a new one within 45 minutes... (my eyeballs popped out with fire) AND, to compensate your time, we would like to give you this and this..."
"................(helpless, listless and grumbling)"
"give me one more wireless mouse" (grinding teeth)
I know, he can make it.
I wandered around as I gave him 1 hour and 15 minutes
stupid me
toy shop Popular Jollibean Daiso playground...
damn it my poor legs
time is 6.06
finally, I get my laptop with those additional free gifts home
what are they?
let's wait for my laptop ready tomorrow...

坚持

If you don't buy it, then leave it

我不是以前的我

I have my own principle

要想左右我？

we'll see

健忘

因为健忘，痛苦消失了

因为健忘，我遇见另一个你

因为健忘，走在另一个人生的路上

又健忘，我又痛苦了

这次，我选择健忘，把你和所有的你都遗忘

Bitter Sweet Bitter

**********CHAOS**********

Friday -

Though something is wrong innitially, we did make it RIGHT at the end of the day

Saturday -

Though exhausted, I was ENJOYed.

Sunday -

the important day. We made it successfully! But, things went wrong due to exhaustion, impatience and misunderstanding. I bear all the responsibility to my own actions.

**********DRIVING**********

Driving does really tell a driver's personality.

Jxx988 - such a "NICE" driver who was "cutting queue" when we were speeding up! Fortunately he met us, we don't have spanner in the car.

reminder:

to All my friends who are interested to visit Malaysia, behave yourself when you are driving in Malaysia as kind-hearted drivers like my father is rare and unique in Malaysia! ha-ha... joking

**********CHILDREN**********

the mixture of Angel & Evil

they make you willing to sacrifice EVERYTHING for their smiley faces

though sometimes idea of strangling them does appear when they are nasty, it would not stop me to love them

**********KINSHIP**********

recognise the similarity and accept the difference

I am not perfect. They do so.

Thanks for loving me

Cauz' of you, I am still alive.

**********LIFE**********

Though most of the time is enjoyable, sweet and memorable, it is totally ........... to me

why did we become like this?

Headache comes again

as

I am sad

I am stressed

I am frustrated

I am irritated


by


many of you

and


many of me

Nag Nag Nag

I spent a meaningful, happy 初七 with my dearest parents and 2 sisters: Wendy and Candy and my little nephew, Ryan in Sentosa. I played as a tour guide, leading us to the places such as Imbiah Lookout, Underwater World and Dolphin Lagoon. Although everything was going smoothly, I was not satisfied as I did not play my role well. How could I frustrate easily? It is a very BAD manner. I will improve myself.

Although I spent a very happy Sentosa trip with my parents, I have to say goodbye to them in the night as they are going back to Malaysia. There is only one word describing my feeling - sux! I hate separation.

I was packed by a very busy study schedule... However, at this period of time, my mind, which is out of my control, keeps thinking about fanciful things. Perhaps, I should not have any sweet memories as they bring me bitterness in the end. If I could, I would erase my memories-everything about that fanciful... I AM TIRED OF IT.

It's time to make it work!

3 days before CNY

The ordering of feeling today is nervous, tiring, HAPPY and bu-shuang.

**Nervous**
I need to meet up my sister's junior to pass him some baby stuff so that he can bring them back to my elder sister who is currently in Beijing. As I seek for his help, I do not like to be late. However, as I always in "slow motion", I almost could not cacth on time. Fortunately, I reach the meeting point before him. (Bling Bling! Ha-ha)

**tiring**
When I reached home around 7p.m., I have to do the cleaning in the kitchen. However, cleaning does not make me tire. In fact, I finished my work in a high spirit. What makes me tiring physically is frustration.

**HAPPY**
Being prompted by a sudden impulse, I did a small action. Although it is small, its impact is huge. It brings me a sweetness of happiness. I know, I always know that WHAT I desire.

**Bushuang**
However, this sweetness had been modestly destroyed; I hate been framed. But, now, I feel better (after 3 minutes). Perhaps, 说者无心，听者有意. I could not expect others to know me well, right? Since we do not know each other well. Anyway, as long as I know that I am doing my best on my work, no intention on hurting anyone, it should not be a problem to let people know me well.

This issue recalled my worst interpersonel experience: a girl (I do not mind if you like to call her B) who always twisted my words.

I love Buddha because I learn a lot of knowledge and they are proven accurately.
心存善念，方得正果。

I am fortunate of having my best friends. Dajie, Eileen muacks la! ha-ha...

混乱的感觉

Maybe, it is all because of it...



Usually, I will wake up at 7a.m. for a class at 9a.m. Well, I need to wake up earlier because I am good in "slow motion" (ha-ha). However, for this Thursday, I was late about 30minutes to wake myself up as I had a more than 2-hour discussion in the night before the day. It did absorb nearly all my energy out of my body.



I attended my first lesson - Service Operation Management. I start getting frustration from 2 issues; one is from my lecturer and one is from project. However, both of them did NOT really stress me up. But, they light up the first "small" fire of my frustration.



note: I saw a "girl" in the morning. But in fact, she is a guy! Oh my god, what a beautiful guy!



Then, I went to my 2nd lesson - Asia Pacific Business, Ethics & Society. Today's lecture is a bit different as our lecturer is the Emerging Markets Manager of Bredero Shaw Singapore, James N. Kodrowski. During the lesson, my temperature is rising up! Not because of him, but those of sitting behind me. I understand that his talk is a bit "dry", some of my friends also do not think that it is a relevant talk for our module. However, I thought that, as an undergraduate of NUS, as an adult, you should show your respect to the speaker eventhough it does not appeal you.



note1: I must praise my girl here, she made a good example; although she has no interest to the talk, at least she chose studying her notes quietly rather than talking)



note2:I told a man to lower his voice, he did so (Thanks for his consideration). BUT those 2 girls sitting besides him keep talking although they knew what had happened. Some may call it as personality, or in Chinese, 有个性. In fact, it is called AP, Attitude Problem or Egoism. They do not appreciate the value of consideration. This recalled me a social problem: "Prince/Princess" phenomenan in Singapore families. Parents spoiled their kids, (sometimes it is unavoidable). The worse is parents feel nothing wrong about their guidance , giving incorrect or certain level of inappropriate education to their kids based on their experience in the cold-blooded workplace or from their parents as well. At this moment, I am grateful of having my parents, thanks for their love with a strict CANE. Because of them, I, at least, like what they said, 还像个人. (ha-ha) Well, be humble is one of the morale I learnt from my parents and primary teacher (ha-ha). Oh, cheerful personality is inherited from my dearest mum (ha-ha).



conclude: if you want people to treat you as an adult, you should behave like an adult; wealth, beauty, capability or power that you own are useless, meaningless if you are lack of MORALE or in Chinese, 人格. This recalled me about one articles I read from the newspaper: the side effect of education system in Singapore.



After this unhappy issue, I had my lunch with my friends (the happiest moment). After, I fell asleep in my 3rd lecture! Oh my Buddha, I am so upset as this is my favorite module - Understanding the Universe. When I realised that I fell asleep, I start blaming that cause of late sleep. However, the anger disappeared very soon after I drank a can of icy milo (ha-ha). Before that, I embarassed myself due to lack of sleep. What had happened is I almost entered into a room called restroom! OH MY BUDDHA! (I still can hear those 2 guys' laughter)



Finally, I reached home. BUT, during the dinner, I break down due to some issues, in Chinese it called, 我脑中那条一直处于紧绷状态、唤作理智的神经终于“嘣”的一声，断了。



So sorry to my dearest family. I love you.