我毕业了

2008.12.2，下午3pm，我将我大学生涯里，或许也是人生中？的最后一张考卷交了出去。我毕业了。

将考卷交出的那一刹那的感觉是无奈-时间不够充裕，答案没写得很完美。

接着，我开始感到开心，喜悦的泡泡不停冒了出来。。。与此同时，却又有着百感交集的矛盾。我终于毕业了；古人是十年寒窗苦读，现代人是二十年不分昼夜分秒必争的与时间，自己和世界竞赛。我完成了我人生中的其中一部分-education，我有松了一口气的感觉。我终于把人生中最重要也最耗时的一项任务完成了。I completed one task in my life. 当然往后的further study or self-development 又另当别论。失落吗？那是免不了的。害怕失去方向，害怕往后孤军奋战的日子，当然也有没好好把握什么什么的一些小失落。。。但是那又如何？！人活着就一定会有大大小小的挫折和磨难，反复不定的情绪波动，没再怕的！至少我不怕了。^^

将要迈向我人生中另一个新的里程碑，另一个人生的挑战；for sure, it would be tougher than the previous. However, I would strive up for it, for myself and for my beloved. 

Now, I have more time to look around; planning better for myself and the people surrounding me. Compared to the past, I feel that I have more missions to be done. Though they are challenging, I am looking forward the day of "conquering" them (he he he...). Moreover, I am not tied by the study anymore. So, I am sure I would be able to fully utilise my days and times to do what I want to do (now, let's game first he he he...) I am sure the schedule would function well on this time round.

whisper: hey, I am graduate. I am really graduate

I must say something to myself, 

"Thank you,  thank you for your perseverance. Well Done."

Good Bye NUS (National University of Singapore). Though you are the top university in Singapore, I am sorry, Singapore Polytechnic would be always my favorite. 

Note: 今天早上没有刺耳的闹铃声没有扰人清梦的吵杂声，我是笑着醒来的。可惜忘了我做了什么梦。。。^^不过，是个很开心的梦就是了。。。

After 1st paper, SCM

Blur wen, how could you forget to charge battery? Ha-ha... gosh, it is so embarrassing... I can tell that Prof. Mabel >>> (=___=ll) ha-ha...

it is sux, but I think I still make it!!! Be Confident! (Yoi)

if we can't be together forever?

there is a famour slogan, "不在乎天长地久只在乎曾经拥有" i used to be its supporter. but today, let me despise it for a moment...

this is my last study week in NUS. we had a gathering, taking pictures non-stop, wishing to keep the moments in our memories. on the bus, gal was quite sad, telling us she had the urge to cry. i didn't. even i was, i wouldn't express, and i cldn't, especially in front of nic! wa-ha-ha...  

also, today my parents left after hugging, kissing and saying "take care" to me. the whole flat suddenly becomes silent, only left my sister and me. loneliness comes too fast and too strong...

if we can't be together forever, why we should know each other? forking out our feeling for a short period of time? if we can't be together forever, why we should love each other? to taste the pain of departure? 

in fact i know the answer. no matter how pain it was, i would still get myself in the swamp for that sweetest part of misery. so, what i can do? i choose to pretend. pretend we are not that close, pretend i don't love you, pretend i am not sad at all after the hurt ^^ cheers! 

《自寻烦恼》

烦恼本无形，悠然在心中

若无真心扰，忧愁自飘渺

ES2002

Before the exam starts, everyone is walking towards the "hell"

When she said "time's up", camera comes~ hahahaha

os: time is insufficient!

4th day - 21 April - theory of 热胀冷缩

After 20th Apr, I mugged at home till the next morning, which is today 6+am, now I am mugging at HSSML. It is crowded with muggers as I expected. Unfortunately, I could not find a table near to any power plug. Anyway, I would survive without it.

不要用电脑咯

But I am very "sui" as I am sitting behind a pair of couple! I must say, they are kind enough as they just whisper. But they are whispering non-stop! It did affect my study. Thanks to them, I realise how irritating Nic and I were in the last semester.

比他们更吵吧 :p

Besides, thanks for my superb sharp nose. I smelled cigarette (from a guy sitting behind wen wen yaa, natural body smell from an Indian girl who is sitting behind me etc!) OMG! Help yaaa!

editted: the weird smell is not from that Indian girl, in fact she smells nice. BUT from that guy of that pair of couple! OMG~~~

note: wen wen enjoying her music while studying... *pout*

wen wen's blur look while studying ha-ha... did you see that guy behind her? he has a very long hair yaa! I bet his fringe is even longer than mine.

Do you know what is theory of 热胀冷缩? Here is the illustration

Her hands are cold; the ring seems so loose on her finger...

Arghh.. stucked!

(wahahaha...just kidding)

2nd Day

Well, I came to school but not for Mugging, there is a make-up lesson. At first, I thought we do not need to go since there will be presentations. BUT BUT BUT, I realised that exam tips would be given at the end of the class. Well, due to this reason, no matter how lazy I ammmm, I haveeee to go, isn't it?

During the whole lesson, I am bu-shuang to certain issue. But, this feeling of bu-shuang remains not more than 3 minutes (ho ho ho... if you know me, that's me) as I know that it is not worth it. However, it had undeniably affected my feeling AT that moment. Rarely, I thought of one idiom,

相由心生

Anyway, I was happy after the lesson~ (thanks "wen wen yaa...")

BUT BUT BUT after the lesson, I went to Chinatown. The damn thing happened. I went to SA tour agency, preparing to settle all remaining payment for my Taiwan trip. Everything is so smoothly processing except that damn "long" queuing time (please view from customer's perspective); when I was planning to close the case, I found that "Damn it, I didn't bring the credit card!" OMG~ it is so so so so awful! Because it means that all the times I spent (from the time I took the train till I planned to close the case) is totally not worth it! (I cry for you, my precious time~~) Again, I have to make another trip to Chinatown in next week when I have to prepare my papers! Arghhhhh....

1st day - 18 April

Mugging period comes again~

Today is so so so happening! Since morning, I couldn't catch a bus! As I forgot to top up my ezlink card, it is so so so embarrasing while you have to alight from the bus after that annoying beep sounds indicating that "hey, dude, you have no money". But I have, ok? They were kept "nicely" in my little lovely pouch (with a load of junk ha-ha...) and it was kept in my big bag. And I was holding laptop and textbook on my hand. So, I have no extra "hand" to open my big bag, searching for my lovely pouch among those notes, files, wires and jacket, then digging out those little coins from the bag. No choice, I took cab! There is only one word could describe my feeling - ABCDE... It is so expensive~ Could you imagine, that is just an approximately 10-minute distance, I spent almost S$6 for traveling. I could take MRT to at least 3 places. It is so so so not worth it...

Then, when reached campus, I had my last term paper of Purchasing & Material Management. Supposedly this misery would start later as our tutor offered us a 20-min break BUT there was a classmate (ABCDE...) suggested to have the paper right now! Oh my god! Does he know that preparation is always not enough? But I laughed after I heard his whispering "give us 2 hours for it (term paper), then." I think, this paper is a total disaster. Although it is an open-book test, I have some exact answers (well, please don't question me the source), I still could not answer other questions well. Arghh, the feeling was so yucks! Now, I am ok with it.

已经发生的事，你还想怎样呀？！

So, forget it and move on.

We took a picture for remembering today - our official last day of this semester, our last term paper (not for Wen Wen), our "gang" ha-ha...
Well, obviously you can tell who is trying to snatch into the picture :p

After the test, I thought that my misery is ended. Ha, fat hope. 好事或坏事都会接二连三发生的。 I strongly agree with it now. Due to carrying too much stuff on Thursday, trust me, the load is much larger than today > jacket, wires, multipurpose plug, TWO textbooks, fully filled water bottle, laptop and NOTES. Thanks for them, I hurt my shoulder. But the impact happens in the next day, which is Today. *sob* I could not raise up my arm~~~

Before we went into our APB classroom, we found that they are coincidentally carrying a sec-like school bag! ha-ha... All are heavy and bulky~

Although I could not raise up my arm, it does not affect me going to have my dinner with my dear friends - Wen Wen and Ah hua. But, before we move on, there is a weird feeling on my foot. I found that...

我的鞋带断了！My feeling was like 真的是悲喜交加呀~

喜的是终于把一双鞋穿坏了(still have 3-4 pairs left)。

悲的是干嘛选在这个时间这个地点断呀？(well, Wen Wen said, "you wear it to school what?" ya, she is right. It is impossible that it would happen in Bugis when its master is studying in campus)

But, 天啊！我穿的是夹脚凉鞋好不好！So, you could imagine how difficult I inserted the band back to the part where it should be. Fortunately, I have a pair of 巧手. I managed to walk on it but the pose is a bit stiff and unnatural, walking like a cripple (no offend).

Lovely ah hua, she is so serious... watching her online TV show - Legendary 7 Princesses

Finally, we had our study in the library. When I went down from second floor, it can't stand the pulling force generated by my walking. It stripped of. Anyway, I was lucky enough as I got the help from a librarian - Auntie Rada. She offered me a VERY BIG staple (used to bind those references), a roll of gummed tape, and a pair of scissors. By using these tools, I managed to walk back home. Haha...

Happiness is short. When I bought a can of drink to compensate Auntie Rada's kindness and friendliness, my M&M peanut chocolate was hanging in the air - in the vending machine. It was stucked! Arghhh... I tried shaking the machine while I was wearing so nicely! It totally tarnished my image! (I know I left no more) But I failed shaking it down from that stupid plastic spiral-shaped roll. When I gave up and went back, Wen Wen successfully persuaded me back to get back my chocolate by using a method - buy one more pack! It spent me another S$1.40. Arghh.. I totally waste a lot of money today. Those supposed-not-to-be... I feel so sorry to those money, as they sacrificed so not worth it.

Can you tell their difference? (hint: not the size, ok?)

Jiang jiang jiang jiang~ It is about the shape! this m&m peanut chocolate (which is now staying in my stomach) "was" heart-shaped! So lovely~ and yummy~

This is my first day of mugging diary in campus. I will update more and more if I have time. Cheers~

5th Mar I was tipsy

Here is wen wen yaa... & I~ We found that we share the same thought!Before the wine appreciation starts, the glasses are well-arranged.
Well, our generous speaker said we hit the jackpot as he got more wine sponsorship. Here are the 4 types of wine we tasted. In fact, we have 8 bottles of wine!!! Whaooo~

During the session, I tasted champagne, white wine and 2 types of red wine. *Tipsy*
Here is our speaker, Mr. Ch'ng Poh Tiong (Gosh, I hope that I didn't spell wrongly). He is a well-known wine writer in Singapore. You may find his articles in 联合早报.

Updated on 22 Mar 08:
There are 4 types of wines presented on that wine appreciation session.

1. Champagne: France, GH Mumm, Cordon Rouge, 12.5% alcohol
2. Red wine: Australia, Jacob's Creek, Grenache Shiraz - Vintage 2006, 14.5% alcohol
3. Red wine: New Zealand, Montana South Island, Pinot Noir - 2007, 12.5% alcohol
4. White wine: New Zealand, Montana Malborough, Sauvignon Blanc - 2007, 12.5% alcohol

Personally I prefer white wine. Mr. Ch'ng is kind enough, he recommended me several bottles of white wine. I will share with you my feedback soon after I appreciate those wines.

NUS construction site tragedy - 3 Died 2 Injured

The crane (Green and White parts) toppled over; At the very right hand side, Civil Defence rescue team were trying (to pull the bodies out?) The only one bus stop of School Of Business
The crane (red parts behind the 3 stripes) hurt the tree badly!
Reporters are asking our Campus Security Guards questions.

Channel NewsAsia

SINGAPORE: Three workers were killed when a crane collapsed on them at a construction site at the National University of Singapore (NUS) on Friday afternoon.

The 60—metre crane toppled over at 2.15pm, crashing into a bus stop and several motorcycles that were parked nearby.

By the time the Civil Defence rescue team arrived, three workers had died. One of them, a Chinese national, was found beside the wreckage. The other two were crushed underneath.
One of the trapped men was a 47—year—old Singaporean crane operator and the other was an Indian national.

It took rescue officers 45 minutes to extricate them a job made difficult by the tangle of steel bars protruding from the ground.

Two other workers with minor abrasions were rushed to the nearby National University Hospital.

The Manpower Ministry (MOM) said the main contractor, Kimly Construction, has not had any fatal accidents over the last two years.

Work on the NUS Alumni Complex is scheduled to be completed this April, but MOM has ordered a full stop work order while investigations are being carried out.

http://sg.news.yahoo.com/cna/20080222/tap-330527-231650b.html

I heard of a great bang and thought that there was a cleaner's pushcart toppled over out of the classroom. I never expect a life-taking accident happened in my campus. This is the 2nd time I heard of campus fatal accident. The first one is in SP while I was a year2 student; a junior fell off the Engineering building accidentally. This time, it is worsen, 3 lives were taken.

Amitabha

It is too late to apologize -Timbaland

People always said, "Like father, like son." (有其父必有其子or有其母必有其女)

I believe it as we get our very first learning from our parents. What they do, what they think will deeply influence our mindset and thinking and our ways of handling issues. Of course, we can't deny that further development of the kid and environmental issue play their role as well. However, what I want to emphasize here is the first point mentioned above.

I heard of a story, a teen's father has abused her mother since she was young. When she grows up, she wishes to find a nice husband who is totally different to her father. She thought she found. Unfortunaly, her prince charming is exactly same as her father. You may wonder, well, it is coincidence. Perhaps, it may be. But, what I heard of is, unconsciously, kid will find a guy/girl who is alike to his/her parents to be his/her spouse.

It tells how strong is the impact of our parents to us.

Share with you my own story:
Since I was young, my father always telling us, never ever say sorry! It is useless.

Don't misunderstand my father first, let's move on.
He told us,
"Apologize is useless after you did something wrong or bad (as you hurt the other(s))"
His concept is:

1. You know its consequence, but you still make the decision, so Why apologize? It is fake or called "deliberate".
2. You do not know its consequence, but you still make the decision. Then what is the point to apologize? Like what he always says, "what don't you ask first? what's the use of your mouth?"
3. In the end, you know you did hurt other(s) then you apologize. It is useless and meaningless because the consequence (hurt or damage) exists.

Be thoughtful, that is what my father teaching us.

See, how strict and correct he is!
Ya, I learn from him. And I adopted his learning wholly. When I was young, I never say sorry. Sounds bad, isn't it? Don't misunderstand me, ha-ha... Not because I am rude or stubborn, it is simply because I never ever do a very wrong/bad thing to others. (Social interaction such as joking is not counted ok?)

I myself feel nothing wrong to his teaching. Moreover, I feel grateful to have my parents. They give me the best teaching of being a good person/human being. I would not say that they are perfect, but they did tell me what is our limit and what is our duty. From them, I know the words of benevolence, kind, forgive, generous, humor and more and more. And I would not say that I am perfect under their teaching. Like I mentioned earlier, further development of the kid and environmental issue matter as well. Sounds like I am very bad? Hm, I am not. Ha-ha...

So, bear in mind, before you want to apologize, why don't you think carefully and then make your decision with a thoughtful mind? Then the ending will be a beautiful scene: everyone is happy, you do not feel sorry, result of your decision may be perfect as well.

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It sounds great above, right? Ironically, in this real world, it does not work. Even myself, I need to say sorry to my family for my impatience, sometimes. To my friends, so far, I think I am nice to them especially girls. :p However, some of them betrayed my trust (pathetic, isn't it? we can never expect people as same as us since we are from different family background). However, it would not affect my ability of trust.

note: when I am writing this post, my mood is superb good. So this post is just a sudden thought to my dad, not referring to anyone but using a current issue only. So just enjoy my post. Cheers.

混乱的感觉

Maybe, it is all because of it...



Usually, I will wake up at 7a.m. for a class at 9a.m. Well, I need to wake up earlier because I am good in "slow motion" (ha-ha). However, for this Thursday, I was late about 30minutes to wake myself up as I had a more than 2-hour discussion in the night before the day. It did absorb nearly all my energy out of my body.



I attended my first lesson - Service Operation Management. I start getting frustration from 2 issues; one is from my lecturer and one is from project. However, both of them did NOT really stress me up. But, they light up the first "small" fire of my frustration.



note: I saw a "girl" in the morning. But in fact, she is a guy! Oh my god, what a beautiful guy!



Then, I went to my 2nd lesson - Asia Pacific Business, Ethics & Society. Today's lecture is a bit different as our lecturer is the Emerging Markets Manager of Bredero Shaw Singapore, James N. Kodrowski. During the lesson, my temperature is rising up! Not because of him, but those of sitting behind me. I understand that his talk is a bit "dry", some of my friends also do not think that it is a relevant talk for our module. However, I thought that, as an undergraduate of NUS, as an adult, you should show your respect to the speaker eventhough it does not appeal you.



note1: I must praise my girl here, she made a good example; although she has no interest to the talk, at least she chose studying her notes quietly rather than talking)



note2:I told a man to lower his voice, he did so (Thanks for his consideration). BUT those 2 girls sitting besides him keep talking although they knew what had happened. Some may call it as personality, or in Chinese, 有个性. In fact, it is called AP, Attitude Problem or Egoism. They do not appreciate the value of consideration. This recalled me a social problem: "Prince/Princess" phenomenan in Singapore families. Parents spoiled their kids, (sometimes it is unavoidable). The worse is parents feel nothing wrong about their guidance , giving incorrect or certain level of inappropriate education to their kids based on their experience in the cold-blooded workplace or from their parents as well. At this moment, I am grateful of having my parents, thanks for their love with a strict CANE. Because of them, I, at least, like what they said, 还像个人. (ha-ha) Well, be humble is one of the morale I learnt from my parents and primary teacher (ha-ha). Oh, cheerful personality is inherited from my dearest mum (ha-ha).



conclude: if you want people to treat you as an adult, you should behave like an adult; wealth, beauty, capability or power that you own are useless, meaningless if you are lack of MORALE or in Chinese, 人格. This recalled me about one articles I read from the newspaper: the side effect of education system in Singapore.



After this unhappy issue, I had my lunch with my friends (the happiest moment). After, I fell asleep in my 3rd lecture! Oh my Buddha, I am so upset as this is my favorite module - Understanding the Universe. When I realised that I fell asleep, I start blaming that cause of late sleep. However, the anger disappeared very soon after I drank a can of icy milo (ha-ha). Before that, I embarassed myself due to lack of sleep. What had happened is I almost entered into a room called restroom! OH MY BUDDHA! (I still can hear those 2 guys' laughter)



Finally, I reached home. BUT, during the dinner, I break down due to some issues, in Chinese it called, 我脑中那条一直处于紧绷状态、唤作理智的神经终于“嘣”的一声，断了。



So sorry to my dearest family. I love you.

Blood-Sucker Library

I am studying in HSSML (NUS Hon Sui Sen Memorial Library). Ya, I am STUDYing in library when this is only the 2nd week of this semester.

I'm so sad! But a more sad thing is I was penalized! Just because I was late for 10 minutes to return that RBR textbook. *sob* Because of this, again, I miss my lovely polytechnic. She is so friendly, so kind-hearted; she never ever treat us strictly, charging us for that 10 minutes ONLY.

However, there is another voice telling me, we should do so to manage well the system. I know it.

CAP CAP CAP

I am happy! Not only because of my rising CAP, but also I didn't fail any modules!!! Finally, it relieved my intensiveness (or nervousness).

I thought I will fail my MA (Managerial Accounting) as I didn't do the paper well, but I didn't fail. Some more, I got a satisfied grade. (What a surprise?!) However, to my Macroeconomics, I got an unexpectedly poor result. (SOB I prefer this module than Microeconomics) Anyway, I am happy that I got a great result to my OM (Operations Management). I think, I am really more capable in SCM (Supply Chain Management)! (Hurray!)

Although my CAP (Cumulative Average Point) is rising steadily, it didn't achieve my goal for that semester. Anyway, as long as it is increasing, I am sure that I will achieve my goal soon!

Nov 20th, 2007

she is smiling;
she is smiling too;
they are both smiling!!

Nov 15th, 2007

Studying is so boring, let's take a snap! (wen wen yaa... & ahhh kennn)
Hm, am I look alike a hamster?
Somebody is taking our photo secretly while we are busy taking photo! ha-ha...

Belief, Talent, Appearence and Myself

I felt down today (5th Nov) for a number of reasons. Keywords: Ch2271 presentation (in fact, it doesn't really affect me), 85, small E, and a Caucasian's girlfriend.

Dear girl and sister said it may due to those strangers and asked me don't take it to heart. Didi said it so. However, I felt that 85 is indeed the main cause.

Anyway, thanks my didi. What did he say do make me feel better although I'm still wondering. :P However, I will try out the method he taught me. So watch out dudes!

My very tight Friday

I had a very tight schedule for this Friday (2nd Nov 2007). Start from 10am, I had my 2-hour lesson before I march to Clementi's Kbox. Before the session ends, I left earlier to my next destination - VivoCity. I had watched the movie which is unfavorable to my friends. However, it was a great show! You wouldn't like to miss it! I enjoyed the show and the most touching moment was that everyone (all NUS students in the cinema theatre) gave the applause when the show ended. I love being a youth as we dare to express our feelings whenever, wherever.

Kbox Moment
I like singing
Before our show starts, let's take a snapshot! :P
Let's take a picture for this memorable night!

Our 1st Date! Wooohoooo~
Act-Cute 4th Sis (in Red) & her youngest sister (in Black)

Crop this photo as required by 4th Sister

My dear 3rd Sister, Ryan Babe and I

Testing Testing

Our lovely mum bought for us, guess which one is mine? (hint: my favourite color)

Chatting with mum, she says a motto in China, that is “在中国，没有你买不到的；只有你想不到的。” showing us how amazing of China is. The huge market of China is indeed a great business potential to the investors.

Interesting Thursday (1 Nov 2007)

Queensway's Ikea: Look at my girl, Eileen on the left side Haaa...
Well, Where is my Nat mei mei? (the very very right side, half of the glasses...)
Hurray, finally we got everyone in the picture! Starts from the left: Wen Wen yaa..., Eileen Gal, Nicholas Sayang, Minhui, Sweetie Ken, Cute Siyi, and Lastly My Nat mei mei ^^
Returned from Ikea, We stayed in Library, it's so boring. Let's take a picture~
Well, I remember to smile at this time~~

We're doing our recording for CH2271 Project~! Eileen said my voice is nice hearing from earpiece. (hmm, I should consider a job of DJ?)
A good take!! (While my phone is in low battery Haaa....)

Wong War Kit, our group mate, is a really cute guy once you get know more about him. ^^He's very easygoing like me, no angry over my straightforward and jokes. Good Guy!!
Last picture, let's ACT cute~~

Ikea trip: A bitter memory I had in the past. Fortunately, I saw a guy there who looks alike my old friend. Thus, I felt great at once Haaa....

Library: If you want to catch me, there will be the first place you should think about.

Art's Recording Room: I never ever notice that I have the potential to being a DJ Haaa...

The Funniest issue: I had spoken Chinese in my presentation?! Gosh, the worst is my tutor is an Idian!! Haaa.... "The company 本身..."

The Lesson I get: Learn not to be influenced or affected by any external disturbance.

Snapshots for Project CH2271

My Favorite 2


My Favorite 1