已经没有家了

这里会被我和bastard两头死牛搞垮

当然sister那小气的个性也功不可没

我没有家了

我没有家人了

我们不是家人了

他们都不知道

还是不要接受罢了

MONDAY 17 JANUARY 2011

First working day after a long week resting at home (I gained 1KG)

Pissed by backache and PMS? Search me...

Went to visit grandpa...

Heard that he may leave anytime, even in the sleep due to his weak heart muscle...

He can still talk and walk consciously; but look does tell the difference

He is wearing a very familiar pajama which was bought by dajie which dad has a similar too...

They are father and son, indeed

They look alike in the similar pajama

Grandma who broke her ankles is lying on the armchair

Met the bastard and my sister who are visiting grandparents

I just greeted them, "A, hello" but both of them ignored the greeting

While I were talking with grandma, they left

I had a good chat with grandparents thereafter

Think of visit them with babe again (to be discussed with babe)

Had discussed about visit herbal medicine sensei who can really cure the illness but the condition is to stand the smelly medicine for at least half of year!

Reaching my "home"... I feel bore

It is no more a "home"

They (mum, Wendy, Candy, sister and bastard) were having dinner

I went in and popped with 4JF but I just greeted him "hello" after I greeted mum, "Mum, I am home."

When passed by the table, I pretend normal and talked to mum and then air, "Wa, whoever finished the food pls stand up oh. Leave a space to me."

Then mum or Wendy teased me, "you are very fat mei? how big the space you need?"

Then I just talk nonsense lol

Then I moved to kitchen for hand washing. Then sister and bastard stood up one by one when I am approaching the table with rice.

I can't bend down so I kicked away the chair that had been used by bastard. That shocked mum and Wendy and reprimanded me softly. No chaos happens.

It is a very indigestible dinner

I feel like I am isolated

And ironically the person to be blamed is my loved one - mum

Anyway, I will bear with it if she likes their coming

The most I will just stay with my babe as he claimed he welcomes :p

Then the sister is being petty again

Sour Wendy as "ren jia"

"don't trouble renjia to change clothes"

Wendy soured her back,

"bastard, remember to collect the wines from renjia's factory"

I was talking with the maid while they were having a tiff

Heard that dad is always at home

On that day I quarreled with bastard and the sister, he was there and looked sadly

Ascertained that our thought is heard when we are praying...

Is whatever she said true?

Search me

MONDAY 20 DECEMBER 2010

1. Mum asked is Monday a public holiday to J

2. J was pissed and said "Just go. Don't ask."

3. Mum and I asked her nicely

4. J asked where are we going

5. Mum said Rengit

6. J said, Rengit only?

7. Mum said, ya

8. J said, why go back

9. Mum said, cleaning ya

10. J said, so boring. Go back for what

11. Mum said, have to clean

12. I asked J, if there is any leave left...

13. J said, used 7788 le

14. Then I asked, leave how many?

15. J said, no more for this year

16. Mum said, "don't know what is she saying" with a smile

17. I clarified no more or still have some left?

18. J shouted to mum and me, "don't ask anymore. Want to go then go!"

19. I shouted to her and bang the table, "we asked you nicely, what is your attitude?"

20. Mum tried to stop us

21. J said something I forget "impolite?"...

22. I said, "we talked to you nicely and that is your attitude. I am just quarreling with my SISTER. Just SISTER."

23. Then J stood up from table and stopped her dinner

24. Then the bastard shouted to Jewelle and Ryan, "Jewelle, Ryan, go home! We are not here to be shouted de! See le also dulan!"

25. I returned him, "Whoever see le also dulan!"

26. Mum said, "let Jewelle finish her dinner"

27. Jewelle also grumbled, "I haven't finish dinner yeee"

28. J just grab and drag her away. Jewelle cried sadly and loudly

29. Mum cried heart-brokenly as Jewelle didn't finish her dinner due to our quarrel. Also, the behavior of J and bastard leaving home without bothering mum's feeling!

My fault! My fault! My fault!!!

I told Candy, there must be a day, she must bring Mum and Marcus to the room. I will chop everyone! Everyone!

I don't need you all to remember my kindness! I don't need you all to remember who am I!

I am a walking zombie since the DAY!

I HATE BASTARD!

I will chop you! I will slice you into 108 pieces! I will drain your blood and throw into dustbin to prevent pollution! I will chop your bones into bits! I will feed your meat and flesh to crazy wandering dogs only. Poison to them! Only one good deed you can have! I will dig your eyes out! I will cut your tongue! I will chop your fingers one by one! I WANT YOU DIE NO COMPLETE BODY

Suffocation

How many days it is after 4th May, the most painful day?

I can't remember...

How long I don't talk to the most hatred, you know who?

I can't remember too...

What I can remember is, Christmas is around the corner but you are not around anymore...

It is totally awful...