混乱的感觉

Maybe, it is all because of it...



Usually, I will wake up at 7a.m. for a class at 9a.m. Well, I need to wake up earlier because I am good in "slow motion" (ha-ha). However, for this Thursday, I was late about 30minutes to wake myself up as I had a more than 2-hour discussion in the night before the day. It did absorb nearly all my energy out of my body.



I attended my first lesson - Service Operation Management. I start getting frustration from 2 issues; one is from my lecturer and one is from project. However, both of them did NOT really stress me up. But, they light up the first "small" fire of my frustration.



note: I saw a "girl" in the morning. But in fact, she is a guy! Oh my god, what a beautiful guy!



Then, I went to my 2nd lesson - Asia Pacific Business, Ethics & Society. Today's lecture is a bit different as our lecturer is the Emerging Markets Manager of Bredero Shaw Singapore, James N. Kodrowski. During the lesson, my temperature is rising up! Not because of him, but those of sitting behind me. I understand that his talk is a bit "dry", some of my friends also do not think that it is a relevant talk for our module. However, I thought that, as an undergraduate of NUS, as an adult, you should show your respect to the speaker eventhough it does not appeal you.



note1: I must praise my girl here, she made a good example; although she has no interest to the talk, at least she chose studying her notes quietly rather than talking)



note2:I told a man to lower his voice, he did so (Thanks for his consideration). BUT those 2 girls sitting besides him keep talking although they knew what had happened. Some may call it as personality, or in Chinese, 有个性. In fact, it is called AP, Attitude Problem or Egoism. They do not appreciate the value of consideration. This recalled me a social problem: "Prince/Princess" phenomenan in Singapore families. Parents spoiled their kids, (sometimes it is unavoidable). The worse is parents feel nothing wrong about their guidance , giving incorrect or certain level of inappropriate education to their kids based on their experience in the cold-blooded workplace or from their parents as well. At this moment, I am grateful of having my parents, thanks for their love with a strict CANE. Because of them, I, at least, like what they said, 还像个人. (ha-ha) Well, be humble is one of the morale I learnt from my parents and primary teacher (ha-ha). Oh, cheerful personality is inherited from my dearest mum (ha-ha).



conclude: if you want people to treat you as an adult, you should behave like an adult; wealth, beauty, capability or power that you own are useless, meaningless if you are lack of MORALE or in Chinese, 人格. This recalled me about one articles I read from the newspaper: the side effect of education system in Singapore.



After this unhappy issue, I had my lunch with my friends (the happiest moment). After, I fell asleep in my 3rd lecture! Oh my Buddha, I am so upset as this is my favorite module - Understanding the Universe. When I realised that I fell asleep, I start blaming that cause of late sleep. However, the anger disappeared very soon after I drank a can of icy milo (ha-ha). Before that, I embarassed myself due to lack of sleep. What had happened is I almost entered into a room called restroom! OH MY BUDDHA! (I still can hear those 2 guys' laughter)



Finally, I reached home. BUT, during the dinner, I break down due to some issues, in Chinese it called, 我脑中那条一直处于紧绷状态、唤作理智的神经终于“嘣”的一声，断了。



So sorry to my dearest family. I love you.

Blood-Sucker Library

I am studying in HSSML (NUS Hon Sui Sen Memorial Library). Ya, I am STUDYing in library when this is only the 2nd week of this semester.

I'm so sad! But a more sad thing is I was penalized! Just because I was late for 10 minutes to return that RBR textbook. *sob* Because of this, again, I miss my lovely polytechnic. She is so friendly, so kind-hearted; she never ever treat us strictly, charging us for that 10 minutes ONLY.

However, there is another voice telling me, we should do so to manage well the system. I know it.

FW:婦人撞盲胞、導盲犬 欺瞞事實逃逸！

更新日期:2008/01/19 15:50 記者陳敏如、林翰廷／台北報導

台北市盲胞邱文昇16日晚上牽著導盲犬下班回家時，在公司附近巷口被車撞上，造成愛犬左腳血流不止，開車的婦人下車察看，不但騙他導盲犬沒事，還數落他離馬路太近，讓他相當難受。

主人邱文昇輕輕呼喊Journey的名字，只見黑溜溜的Journey依偎在主人身旁，因為被車撞到，左腳有兩處撕裂傷，還包著黃色紗布，主人說Journey非常盡職，每次外出，牠總是走在左前方，也因此車禍發生時，Journey為主人挨了傷。

邱文昇回憶車禍當時，他說：「我摸我狗的腳的時候，她就一直說，牠還可以站，沒事沒事，我就覺得說，妳連我這麼大個人，都看不到了，妳怎麼看得到狗的腳有沒有受傷？」

雖然開車的婦人幾句話敷衍了事，趁機開車逃逸，邱文昇當時雖然聽到Journey幾聲哀叫，但因無法檢查傷勢，直到走回公司，才從旁人得知Journey傷得不輕。

邱文昇說：「Journey的老師回來時，才發現說地上都是血。」記者問：「已經流了滿地是血，牠還忍著帶你回來？」邱文昇說：「對啊，應該就是滴到地上，還是帶我走回來。」

還好這次意外，並沒有讓Journey喪失工作能力，警方也已經調閱附近監視器，追查肇事婦人的下落，幫無辜的Journey討個公道。

http://tw.news.yahoo.com/article/url/d/a/080119/17/s55p.html

Conclusion: 人不如狗

Note:她知不知道台湾很缺导盲犬呀？瞎！

Emotional

Getting more and more emotional.

I seldom cry when I was young. Nothing can make me cry except one. However, I could cry easily for any single things in these recent months. It is quite crazy to me, and I don't wish to be crazy in the end. Some articles mentioned that it is a symptom of depression, some stated that it is a way of distressing... I don't know I am of which type. Optimistically, I think I am getting more and more kind-hearted, grateful to everything surrounding me.

"Never take things as granted."

No Mercy

It is almost a week since the school term starts. I can say that 这个学期很“凶”! I have no a single free day at all! I feel stressful NOW although it is just the first week of this semester.
I start worrying about a lot of things. And I wish to complete them on time. Thus, I would eliminate any possible hindrances, in any ways.

May Buddha bless me

在看不见人的地方，地球是美丽的

我现在的心情好复杂哦！明天开学了，心情好闷哦，懒散得不想那学期到来，巴不得能多出几天好好地窝在家里发霉。可是，这时我却看到了电视所播映的一则节目广告。当场，心花朵朵开哦！开心得不得了！What's that advertisement is? The Planet: Earth is coming back to Arts Central!!! Do watch out for this fabulous programme on every Wednesday, at 10 p.m.. Like what Oprah said, "You'd fall in love to our planet..." However, I would like to add on, "You'd fall in love to our planet where there is no Human Being." Human Being did make a lot of "noble" and huge constructions on this planet. However, the nature of this planet is prettier.

Achieve the Goals

My second last semester is going to start. 14th January 2008, Monday, I will attend my first lecture for this semester at 4p.m.. During this holiday, I learnt something about life, financial management and trust issue from people. I feel great as I wish to improve myself to be a better "human being", either in physically or mentally condition.

Thus, I set a number of goals to myself. It reminds me of my childhood. When I was young, I always set a lot of goals to myself. Some people may set only one goal in a year such as "I want to obtain 100 marks for my English paper.", "I want to gain more 10cm for my height.", "I want to be the class representative." and so on. I am not one of them. I like to set a lot of goals in different areas which I concern. I did achieve most of the goals except one - diet. Ha-ha... Should I blame for my mum's wonderful cooking skills? No, it's all my fault - no spirit of persistence.

Now, there is a number of goals to be achieved. I know what is the priority in the depth of my heart (That's not the diet, you guess wrongly ha-ha) and I believe that I will sacrifice some valuable and priceless people or things as a return.

"To gain something, we need to sacrifice something more than or equal value." I modified the origin sentence of Trade Equality. In real life, we may need to pay more to gain something we desire. That is the reality. I know it and I wish to get use to it, sooner or later. Like my dear 3rd sister said, "You can't gain both of them at the same time." (鱼与熊掌不可兼得). However, honestly, I want both of them (鱼与熊掌) and I will try numerous ways to get them, eventually. No matter what the result is, I wannna give it a try. At the same day, 4th sister mentioned about a discussion topic given by the interviewers, "Beauty, Power and Money, choose only one of them." My sister picked up one of them; If I were her, I will give them my answer - ALL of them. Ha-ha...