残忍

人也好，事也好，都不重要

伤口不肯结痂

腐臭的脓血时不时提醒着我它的不完整

嘲笑我的懦弱

生病了 =)

原来我一直都在生病

这场犹如梦魇般的传染病才是现实

痛苦持续蔓延

承受折磨

无意间

连累了不想伤害的人

对不起，不要原谅我这个不正常不能给你正常的

要记得哦

要笑！

再痛，也要笑！！

24 December 2009

To you only,

Sorry and keep smiling.

Farewell to Giang Nguyen

231209 NYNY

221209

221209 1552

bad mood

abcdefghijklmnop...

bad mood ^ ^

super bad mood ^ ^

Life is a Disaster, at this moment NIA =D

我不需要看什么灾难片了，我那和爱我及我爱的家人日夜争执的人生已经是个大灾难了。

I don't need to watch disaster movie; quarrel between me and my beloved family that loves me too? is already a disaster in my life.

我很爱说气话，真幼稚 - 要改

I love to throw tantrum, it is childish. I shall correct it.

。。。

很早就了解为什么郑秀文在《孤男寡女》里所祈求的了

Cinta tetapi tiday memerlui saya... inilah tiday bermakna... saya tiada makna di rumah ;D

Ha-ha, mood swing at this moment... Anyway, I would be fine soon. Tml it is a new me again.

突然哼起了张柏芝的《星语心愿》~

爱死了搜狗中文快打！！！

IMM with Dajie

December 5, 2009

Happily bought a pair of pants at only SGD29 in G2000

But mum worried that I am getting more and more boyish =p

Current target is not on clothing / fashion, is on BAG

Who is going to US? UK?? =p

Teambuilding

December 4, 2009 GBS teambuilding session

12.30 set off from Tanjong Pagar to Pulau Ubin

raining; I can see the lightings when I am on the boat (cool~)

1. warm-up - form a circle in sequence of birth month and date

2. self introduction - introduce yourself your name, birthday and secret favorite

3. teamwork A - form a circle and sit on the thigh of whoever standing behind you

Cool n Fun

4. form team - lady first; count from 1 to 5

5. brainstorming of team name, hakka and slogan - Traffic Light (Pulau Ubin needs it xD) Be Alert; Be Ready; Let's Go / Chiong aaaah! (we expect the unexpected; we are ready to take any expected or unexpected challenges; we can survive and win!)

6. show time

7. missing elements

8. answer the booklet's teamwork-related questions

9. smell and taste - vinegar, cinnamon, clove, mint leaves, forget 1 / dried ?, pumpkin seed, mango juice with aloe vera cubes, dried cranberry, baby corn

10. cooking session - fruit cocktail salad --

19++ Crown Plaza's Azur

SASHIMI (SALMON, TUNA & SQUAD?FISH), TOFU SUSHI, EGG SUSHI, POTATO SALAD, LOBSTER, OYSTER, "HEI BO", TOUFU, INDIAN-STYLE FRIED RICE, CHINESE-STYLE FRIED BEE HOON, FRIED RICE, ROASTED DUCK, ROASTED CHICKEN, WESTERN-SYSTLE GRILLED FILET, SEAFOOD LASAGNA, STEAK, GRILLED POTATO CUBE, CHEESES!, DESSERTS!!! (FLAVORS: STRAWBERRY, CRANBERRY, BITTER CHOCO & COFFEE?, CHOCHO, CHINESE HERB, NYONYANG COCONUT KUIH-MUIH, PEANUT, SESAME, MANGO JELLY & forget 1)

forget to eat: fruits and ice cream =(

SGD50 per pax - besides beautiful environment and handsome/polite waitress and waiter, find no reason to come back again

To you

不要担心我

Puppy!

Boss!

Dog of Friend's Friend

100% pet dog!

obedient

quiet

friendly

no possessive

...

my dream dog!!!

为我疯狂

不用entertain

不用假笑

不用戴假面具

真好

没有穷追猛打

没有严加拷问

没有追根究底

想说就说

不想说的一笑带过

真好

天空好暗

灯光好美

周围的纷扰与我何干？

置身度外的感觉

真好

麻醉的感觉。。。很好

发泄的感觉。。。很好

一切真的都很好

**********************************************************

新加坡好难看到我爱的夜空

Am I happier? Thanks for asking even if it's just an asking

bolehkah seseorang memberitahu saya kenapa saya masih berasa sedih apabila saya ketawa?

Ezlink卡不见了。。。幸亏我没top up SGD50

New Moon makes me sleepy!

Minum dan menangis boleh membantu saya lupakan kesedihan sekejap

我想回家

I don't want boyfriend, I want ...

"I win", is the only result

I am tired

I am exhausted

I am almost out of breath

I am a fool

I am an idiot

I am choosing the most difficult path

I am stupid

I am silly

I am giving myself a trouble

I was spoiled

Do I wanna give up?

No, I don't want.

Decision can be changed

Plan can be changed

Mind can be changed too

Change is only constant

I wouldn't give in

I wouldn't give up

I can change

I will change

I am changing

I will have what I want

in the end.

Penat

tanah buruk dengan keluarga bapa

melawat pada tahun baru cina saja

nenek berada

tiada datuk

tiada datuk luar

tiada nenek luar

baik dgn keluarga ibu

tiada rasa kini

tiada lawat negara lain

nak pergi ke South Africa untuk berlian

terjumpa Roonie

"bukan la~"

boleh picit

boleh kena muka

cakap lebih banyak daripada dahulu

menjelaskan tetapi tak cukup

苦不过是人生的一小部分

什么最苦？知道却得装白痴

你没听过无知是一种幸福吗？装一下白痴娱人娱己何乐而不为。。。我粉努力呢！

什么最苦？知道他不爱你？

那就让他爱你啊？有什么好苦的？不努力在那里唉唉叫，真烦！！！

什么最苦？没有钱

那就赚呗！罗嗦什么？有钱人要更有钱，没钱人努力就也有钱啦！钱多钱少，定义由你定的嘛！

什么最苦？没有家人

找一个最爱，一起组个爱的小窝~<3

什么最苦？没脑？

知道自己没脑就长进些，不然，天生我材必有用，向专业发展吧！我觉得厨师帅呆了！

什么最苦？不快乐

自己的幸福是自己带来的，我很幸福 =) 你也可以，我最爱的你

May Buddha always bless my beloved family

一片云的期待

我静静地看着

看着自己的转变

从水变成气

再从气凝聚成云

最后降落在大地

周而复始

只为了身为云的那一刻

我想去你那里

不顾一切的

当我看到你

我会为你遮住那恼人的艳阳

再下起绵绵细雨

为你挥去午后的酷热

可那顽皮的风却老将我带往相反的方向

等我回过神

我又降落在大地了

我只有不停的不停的转变

一次又一次的尝试

期待着那一天的到来

到时请不要撑伞

就在那细雨中漫步吧

那是我对你断不了的思念

山水有相逢

“you always don't know what you want.”

这是人身攻击

对于工作，随你说

对于我的人生

我对自己却开始产生了一丝丝的怀疑。。。。不过只不过是

庸人自扰！！！！（笑）

我一直都知道我要的是什么（那是当然的！）

我有Louis Vuitton monogram canvas Speedy 30（我有能力买了）

我有Honda Jazz

我有SGD4K per month

我有美好的家人和好友

我还有鹏程万里

我没有什么好疑惑的了（笑）

今日我是晚辈，我让你。。。

不过我奉行君子报仇十年未完

他日再见。。。必是你死期！！！

I am happy-ing *dance*

Today is a happy day!

I was unhappy to work in the morning but I persuaded myself "I must feel good!".

And I did!

Dad - GOOD

Work - BETTER

该死的人自己一个做到死 xD BEST

It recalled my happiest moment in the Taiwan trip - 炒饭 issue

Hahahaha...

So what you asked me to read the mail tomorrow?

So what you asked me to ask you before sending the email??

Just say whatever you wanna say, se~~nior~~

You are not my boss...

EQ zero... failed to manage your junior - me, how do you promote?

No wonder leader is much much much younger than you but superior than you!

I have a good EQ

That is why you are still alive

Haha, I can't wait to the day you are dying in front of me because of stroke

David CTW can't breath smoothly, crawling on the floor and struggling for a help from me and others?

GOSH, I am shivering

not because of fear

but this beautify imagination

NO DOUBT, HE DESERVE IT

*dancing like a genie*

一棵开花的树

一棵开花的树

作者: 席慕蓉

如何让你遇见我 在我最美丽的时刻　为这 我已在佛前　求了五百年 求他让我们结一段尘缘 　 佛于是把我化作一棵树 长在你必经的路旁 阳光下慎重地开满了花 朵朵都是我前世的盼望 　 当你走近　请你细听 那颤抖的叶是我等待的热情 而当你终于无视地走过 在你身后落了一地的 朋友啊　那不是花瓣 是我凋零的心

唐瑄 - 飞蛾扑火

爱情的本质是忠贞

爱情的过程则是战争

没有卑不卑鄙

只有成功与否

动情、诱情，再窃情、占情

毫不犹豫地抢

绝不心虚地夺

耐心等待禁闭的心露出每一道缺口，然後进占，便不再撤

利用其利用，不择手段地引诱，死缠著不让其忽视

夺人更夺己所爱，堂然趁虚而入之後便再不撒手，永不放手

宁做飞蛾，扑向烧不死的堕落

矮子矮一肚子拐

要爆血管了？

好期待哦！

呵呵呵呵呵

狐假虎威

你又不是我的老板

bleahhhhhhhhhh

Feelingless

不做醃魚族！

「Kipper（醃魚）」一詞來自kids in parents’ pockets eroding retirement savings，意思是在父母口袋侵蝕退休金的孩子，也就是一般人俗稱的「啃老族」，泛指二十五至三十四歲，沒有工作、住在家中吃父母退休老本的青年。

retrieved from: http://tw.news.yahoo.com/article/url/d/a/091023/78/1timp.html

赌上一切换取一生一次的爱恋

佛祖说，

前世五百次的回眸，换来今世的一次擦肩而过；

前世五百次的擦肩而过，换来今世的一次相遇；

前世五百次的相遇，换来今世的一次相识；

前世五百次的相识，换来今世的一次相知；

前世五百次的相知，换来今世的一次相爱……

你说，两个有缘人走到一起容易嘛，

上辈子得回多少眸，擦多少次肩……？

走在一起是缘分，一起再走是幸福！

credit to: http://www.u148.net/article/13292.html

I am feeling good

I am feeling good I am feeling good I am feeling good I am feeling good I am feeling good I am feeling good I am feeling good I am feeling good I am feeling good I am feeling good I am feeling good I am feeling good I am feeling good I am feeling good I am feeling good I am feeling good I am feeling good I am feeling good I am feeling good I am feeling good I am feeling good I am feeling good I am feeling good I am feeling good

不知感恩 is detestable

We shall appreciate when we have FREE gifts

有免费的东西用了还嫌东嫌西？

I already predict the life of a Man who is pessimistic and ungrateful

Ha-ha...

I wonder, if he is dying in front of me, will I save him?

Ha-ha...

I think, I will

to enjoy watching his miserable life...

Ha-ha...

oh, evil me

Thank you

I am moving towards the path of success

step by step...

“加油”

Yes, I will win this war.

hormone-imbalanced ojisan is...

I am feeling good no matter what happens

Your blood vessel ruptures

I welcome its happening

I WALK TOWARDS THE PATH OF SUCCESS

"...reluctant... so tiring..."

I disagree.

Breaking iceberg is interesting

The more challenging the goal, the Greater the glory

I am a result-oriented person

As long as I win, the hardship will be appreciated

辛苦？不算什么。（况且我一点也不觉得苦）

只要成功了，付出一切的努力都是值得的。

辛劳将得到奖励

Believe, the miracle is yours

It works again!

I am feeling good now!

i am a winner

now I realize, how important bilingual is.

besides language, the presentation skill does matter too

also, the consideration prevails

a man who doesn't care about what others thinking and keep delivering whatever he wants to, he will be a loser forever

luckily i were not him, hahaha

i am shivering

a man with the strongest minded will reap the final glory

thanks for your encouragement, Erjie

thanks for your tease, Wendy

I will be the winner

hohohoho * 1000000

i am feeling good

useless bum D.C. haha

Goal

03 Oct 2009

Let ____ be the witness, I, ______, shall contribute double amount to my blood relations who are _____ and ______ as a token of appreciation. This agreement at maturity is 03 Oct 2010.

没有既定的事实

在这个世界上，什么东西都是可以被改变的

宗教信仰，起居饮食，待人处事，就算是性别，以当今医学技术也不是什么不可为之事

只要踏出第一步，人生就是张任你添色的大帆布

我要鲜艳夺目的色彩涂满我的人生

即使价格再昂贵，我都会得到

世上唯一不变的就是变化

the only constant is change

I WANT TO CHANGE MY LIFE

work it out

he can be a stronger man

he will be

To mum

Thank you. With your love and caring, he will be fine.

不经一番寒彻骨，哪得梅花扑鼻香

01 Oct 09

I admit, I have doubt.

I scare of cheating

I scare of losing my scarce resource

But I trust you

I trust myself

With determination and perseverance, the success is waiting for me

the chance awaits for me

obstacles may come

but opportunities reach sooner

what I am worrying about

it finds the solutions for me

the miracle does exist

I am experiencing them

I trust it

Be positive

Also, remember No pain No gain

No free lunch in the world

Follow their path of success

No doubt

No hesitation

I will then success too

100 awaits for me

死老头

无聊人真“多”

He can handle it

He will attend Ryan's university graduation ceremony.

Pray for you, dad.

Success is waiting for me

A great experience sharing session enlightened me beyond my expectation

I can't believe there are such people helping others in this way

But in the depth of heart, I have doubt

I will remove it soon

I had a great day again!

No matter how busy I was, I handled them well

No matter how difficult it was, I did it

Be specific - a new learning point

Be daring - I made the first move, I would never satisfy to 99!

100% power!

100 100 100 100 100 100 100 100 100 100 100 100 100 100 100 100 100 100 100 100 100 100 100 100 100 100 100 100 100 100 100 100 100 100 100 100 100 100 100 100 100 100 100 100 100 100 100 100 100 100 100 100 100 100 100 100 100 100 100 100 100 100 100 100 100 100 100 100 100 100 100 100 100 100 100 100 100 100 100 100 100 100 100 100 100 100 100 100 100 100 100 100 100 100 100

Come, what I want

我感受到神奇了呵呵呵

Yes!

I did it again!

要做就要做到一百分

life must be filled with positive

mingled with those with positive minds

think positively

act positively

believe positively

I like V and E

You are so cheerful and positive

thanks for enlightening me when I am down

Not the words

It's your attitude to the life

Although I am still surrounded by negative items* in most of the time, I can now think positively

No one can stop me thinking positively even if I am in the mud of negative (sick of U all)

I believe myself

I can be the one changing my life

my destiny

Yes, 1% is a huge difference

I can achieve 100%

Why should I satisfy to 99%?

Fight for my glory of the life

Fight Fight Fight Fight Fight Fight Fight Fight Fight Fight Fight Fight Fight Fight Fight Fight Fight Fight Fight Fight Fight Fight Fight Fight Fight Fight Fight Fight Fight Fight Fight Fight Fight Fight Fight Fight Fight Fight Fight Fight Fight Fight Fight Fight Fight Fight Fight Fight Fight Fight Fight Fight Fight Fight Fight Fight Fight Fight Fight Fight Fight Fight Fight Fight Fight Fight Fight Fight Fight Fight Fight Fight Fight Fight Fight

Thanks, Benefactor

I believe I can do it.

and I did it.

I love this feeling - success

I know I can do more and more, better and better.

Bye Bye, pessimistic

Bye Bye, negative

I do...

I am optimistic

I loves myself

I am loving my life

I never think of killing myself, family and those whom I detest

I am a cheerful girl

I love joking~

note: author of crayon sinchan died in Sep 2009

091609

Sorry I overlooked. I thought I told you. There are too many issues overwhelmed me, I am sorry I didn't tell you. And I am not angry.

no heart hurray

OT till now! 745pm! so "sick"... ppl love pushing stuff to others, leaving without guilt?... i envy them... envy their heartless... i wish i can be a heartless bum... so i wldn feel pain, guilty or sad in the future... no heart hurray!

May Buddha bless my beloved

except prayer, i am helpless

I don't mind to die in exchange of my whole family's longevity, happiness and wealth.

A great deal!

名副其实的：“死得其所”

Mr. Triumph said, "It's just business!"

"in"Equality Principle =p

DBS Auditorium

Going to a seminar again in October... I will wear FORMALLY for sure this time!

囊中物

亲情，我最受宠，你不知道吗？我其实也不是很清楚呵呵

友情，有我就有欢笑

爱情，终究还是我的

是我没搞清楚状况？还是想太多？

bet they did mention at the beginning

u're hired for projects

though it did extend

the attribute doesn't change

i am invisible

sourcing for the info they need only

"you don't need to attend the conference."

? i know i am not enough of knowledge and skills to host the conference.

but, why i don't need to attend?

i voice out, "then, i can't learn."

he is speechless.

is it a kind of 抢功劳？

i need to study one new module for workplace...

the feeling is really not that good after I suffered "mental trauma"

I envy sisters' lovely relationships

I envy their investments

I envy their LV bags

But, what I can do is, WAIT till...

I am capable of skills and knowledge

I am savvy with mechanisms

I am fluent with different languages

I am rich

Then it would be the time they pay the price

a long way to go =)

\无奈/\等待/

since July... sense that something is wrong

CT scan and blood test tell nothing.

Endoscope found "ulcer" that was at last examined as first-stage cancer cell.

Thanks mum

081109 we cant do anything, but wait

We waited a great news - a success!

But we overlooked Dr. Melissa's words - pancreas

Operating theatre, High Dependency Unit, general ward - Block 5, Floor 7, Ward 57

Office, SGH, Home for 11 days

082409

With this envelope, check with chemo-therapist is there a need for chemotherapy on 11 Sep?

there is still a long way to go

Materialism

LV neverfull GM

LV speedy 30

LV wallet with coin pocket

Nokia E71

Iphone 3G+

HTC Diamond

Sony MP3

Ipod suffle

Honda Jazz

Suzuki Swift

Giorgio Armani Diamond Perfume

Channel Poison Perfume

...

I will have you all sooner or later!

My Nite Travel with My Family

Bushuang

080509

My platinum necklace has broken. This is the second time! Luckily my little diamond pendant is not missing. That is what I get after paying SGD10 repair fee? "Amazing"~ Mum asked me to buy a new one... LOL

080609

Stucked in train~ stood about 1 hour to reach my destination. "Amazing" morning~ I shall buy another new pair of HIGH heels

Happy

080509

Lovely night, after a great dinner, we set off to Orchard - Takashimaya. Then the next destination should be Clarke Quay, but our lovely "taxi uncle" brought us to Bukit Merah?? Haha, in the end, we went to AMK for crab meal as supper. I always think that having seafood in SG is stupid as I can have a super generous seafood banquet in MY at a much cheaper price. But at this time round, I must admit this Merllon Seafood doing quite well with their creativity. That's why it can expand from a small food stall to a big seafood restaurant. However, they shall improve themselves in terms of service.

Honesty could be a sin

When we were young, teachers taught us Honesty is a virtue. It is a must to be a honest person in our life...

What a lie...

Parents want honesty of children

Teachers prefer honest and smart students

Everyone loves honesty

We shall be honest

What a lie...

How to be honest when your honesty could hurt people without your notice?

How to be honest when your honesty could bring monetary loss to people?

How to be honest when your honesty is already a weakness to you?

I was told I am a very straightforward, direct and honest person. I don't know and don't like to lie. Rule by rule, that is my discipline.

However, this honesty already hurt people. If that so, I found no reason to be honest anymore.

I would rather be a liar, giving others an easier life although it breaks my rules, disgusts me...

At the same time, I found no more reason to trust people because they abuse my honesty

Morale of story: If I trust HR again, I am a fool.

Eventhough it's not my mistake (everyone shall pay the price for their mistake), I feel bad to this result. Sorry, Melissa.

Keep Smiling or Be A Loser

Am I evil?

If you are such hypocrite talking sarcastically in every speech you giving, I am sure No One would like to entertain you.

Ppl love to complain, "Why they don't like me?" Sometimes, you are just unlucky being together with a group of "unclick" people where unfortunately there is a person who has a strong influence power dislikes you. Then that is your luck. I met this before (but I never complain, I tried to fix). And trust me, that person would pay this price. The word of "forgiveness" doesn't really exist in my dictionary, to enemy.

Another reason is, the problem lies on you. Attitude is always the issue, especially in this case. =P Lunch break is really precious moment, be wise.

绝对男友

Just watched special last episode of Perfect Boyfriend.

... I wish I never watch it.

Knight:

"I can't have a family with Riiko. I wouldn't be aged. I remain this look loving Riiko forever. As I am a robot, I can't be together with Riiko for her sake...

I was born to love Riiko. But I wouldn't be together with her. Therefore, pls destroy me. My love to Riiko is torturing me."

Totally sad....

And that Stupid Riiko:

"Robot would never die. Knight is born to love me. Even if I die, the one he can/must only love is still me. At that time, Knight must be very sad because he can only love me. I really like Knight but I can't be together with him."

=______= Stupid! Cauz you love him, so you don't wanna him suffering when you die? Idiot. Should cherish the time and create more memories with him. No one can tell the future. Perhaps, he might be the one "dying" before you! (e.g. hit by TEU container! haha)

End up, stupid human girl runs towards the human boy too.

OK LOL, happy ending LOL. Human vs Human. Poor Robot who was created by Selfish Human die quietly.

Totally ................ can't accept that ending.

I prefer the previous sadly ending.

Asia Pacific Customs-Business Dialogue

01 Aug 09

Asia Pacific Customs-Business Dialogue (ACBD)

9am - 530pm

Grand Copthorne Waterfront Hotel, Grand Ballroom - Level 4

1) saw a manly Japanese guy who is tall and most importantly, eyebrows were shaved! wahaha

2) spilled a glass of orange (great piece of the day)

3) under-dressed (damn)

4) strong air-con (I thought there is a rise on electricity?)

5) so-so food

6) detailed documents

7) interesting presentations

conclusion: I would rather overdressed, next time

放下

073009

mood swing...

nobody is there

no one would be there for me

i am nothing to them

they have their own life...

move on, babe...

let it be...

leave it, then you gain it...

my biggest weakness is always this.

i shall be IItachi Uchiha, then i will be as perfect as him?

a crazy thought ha...

To Success

072909

Raffles Marina...

walking in a beautiful moonlight night

I accepted the tease

I accepted the pity

But I don't accept the discouragement

I walk alone on the path towards the success

Even there is nobody supporting me (though your support is important)

I don't want to give up

As I know,

I will be the last smiling happily

May Buddha bless those of my beloved

why

the distance is closer

but the distance is still far

it's really trying my limit...

I think my patience is up to max

*take a deep breath ~~~

never mind =]

I am sure I would be the winner

I would be the one keeping smile on my face

let's wait and see =]

******

perhaps, I might lose something more valuable or truly valuable for this sake?

search me

Be calm

072309

Feel uneasy

I need to chant more 大悲咒

不幸中的大幸

072009

1130am, Yu Ren Sheng @ Jurong Point

2pm, cab - starts my bad mood...

If you don't know the direction, pls ask

If you don't understand mandarin, pls switch off your 93.3FM

2.30pm, X-ray

2.30++pm, start our waiting

4.30++pm, realized that we are out of the queuing line

5.20+pm, that is too late to have a discussion for operation scheduling.

我想离家出走到没有人认识我的地方安静地看着我最爱的星空

我啊，有嘴说别人。

怎么不拿那些大道理来说说自己呢？

大家都很痛苦

不过我有一点不一样吧？

因为我不会畏畏缩缩，不会怨天尤人，不会自暴自弃，不会举棋不定

我大剌剌地说出口（爱恨分明，最讨厌虚伪）

我笑呵呵的接受嘲弄（只有臭Marcus可以）

我苦哈哈的努力向上，自我提升（为了我自己）

要与不要，我一直都很清楚我的答案是什么

对不起，即使这不是你们所乐见的，即使这是个错误，我还是会继续错下去

因为与其如了你们的愿我却痛苦后悔，那我宁愿自私地选择让你们再为我担心一阵子，也不要后悔。

因为我觉得我快看到终点了

原谅我的任性，我再任性也没多少时间了

爱你们，我的家人

mum is pestering me

071409

mum saw that picture, knowing that is the guy I told her in the past.

she fretted up! ha-ha... questioning, nagging and pestering me for more than 1 hour.

less than 30 minutes, I could not stand it anymore...

I did the craziest thing in 2009.

I posted "who wanna be my bf? my mum is pestering me" in facebook...

sounds so desperate... as if nobody wants me... do you agree? *wink*

I think we will meet up soon...

if you are still the same...

else, like what they said, you are looking at other girls.

... then you will have my blessing.

If today was your last day

上次你离开，我很难过。你也是吧？我想你不可能会。

这次你离开，我不难过。你也是吧？不懂怎样难过了

你mama说我变聪明了。你说呢？=D

*********************************

In the morning, I keep thinking of what mum told me: Get a BF

Now, I only think of my dad...

I think, I am really a damsel in distress now XD

*********************************

Do u wanna be my bf? Ha!

I am working =p

人笨，真的没药医。

common sense plssssss

071309

水果档？

071009

总是会找任何借口、理由滞留在外头。。。

太安静了。。。没有人的家

从来没有像今天的星期五一样如此期待回家

还未踏上台阶，已经听到了电视声、电玩声响、说话声和杂声。。

好吵，可是好温暖。。。有家的感觉。。。

有你的地方才是我的家。。

***********************************************

爸爸妈妈的到来也带来了各式水果 - 苹果、鲜橙、山竹、红毛丹、奇异果、樱桃、水晶梨、椰子、还有什么芒果和“布桃山”？

好健康，好“水果” 呵呵呵

***********************************************

listening IF TODAY IS YOUR LAST DAY by Nickelback...

Power of will: I move on and I leave all old pictures in the past. I said goodbye to yesterday

Chorus:

If today was your last day
and tomorrow was too late
Could you say goodbye to yesterday?
Would you live each moment like your last?
Leave old pictures in the past
Donate every dime you have?
If today was your last day

Every second counts as we don't have second try... So, never regret

to yourself

to your family

food and days

070509 being a housewife... sweep floor, wash clothes...

070609 having dinner with 3rd sis n bil... sinful curry

070709 3rd trip to JP (haha) sinful curry again! erjie tricked us =p

070809 spore flyer - wakaku @ marina square - another sinful curry again!! plus a bowl of soup noodle...

*mini summer house cleaning for arrival of parents

070909 parents arrived. had midnite supper with them @ holland v's crystal jade... sinful ramen n dim sum!!!

*private car's pros

071009 preparation for sun's ceremony...

*look forward

无能的猪

你越想整我，我会表现得越出色！凸现你的无能！

我想回家

心情很沉重

我很累，不想笑，不想说话，不想entertain，不想理任何人，什么都不想！

我想回去

我想回家

May Buddha stop his suffering;

Let me be him, I am willing to bear it for his sake since I am already sick of living =)

爱要大声说出来

想起最近朋友说很想做一件事却不敢做，因为性格不如我外放，家里没那个习惯还是什么的。

是这样子吗？

没有人一生下来就会游泳、跳舞还是唱歌。我也不是一开始就如此外放的好不好？

最重要是你肯不肯做而已。

怕丢脸？丢脸有什么关系？不要怕别人看待你的眼光，那绝对不是取笑而是羡慕。

因为他们没种/没脸/没人（一起）做，就只好用异样的眼光来掩饰他们的倾羡。

我曾经为了送给我最爱的爸爸一件他想要的东西做出最不淑女也最不顾形象的事，那时候我想过怕丢脸吗？当然是想过的！一来觉得丢脸尴尬，二来怕丢了脸还是得不到那件东西！可是我有时间考虑吗？没有！如果我不争取，那件东西就会被别人捷足先登。那时候爸爸可能不会太失望又或者是过了一下就忘记了，可是我一定会很后悔我为什么要怕丢脸而不尝试？就算之后爸爸就把那样东西晾在一旁，那也不打紧。只要我曾经让他开心就可以了不是吗？（注：我爸可没有把那东西晾在一旁，他挂在他衣橱上呢！嘿嘿）很多东西/人，错过了就是错过了。这个教训有多少人在没有失去前就懂了而且做了呢？我很幸运，因为我很早就学会了不要后悔。（-小遗憾-如果可以更早学会就好了）

当众吻你爱的人，有什么好尴尬？

当众被你爱的人吻，有什么好害羞？

就让别人妒忌，羡慕吧！因为他们不敢、不能、不可以像你一样向你爱的人如此这般的表达情感。

每一次的离别，我自己就常常这样当众拥抱和吻我的爸爸。起初我会小尴尬，后来根本就是不吻不抱的话，我还不习惯勒！爸爸当初也会不好意思，渐渐的还不是就范？嘿嘿，搞不好他心里还开心的勒！

我爱你，很难说吗？不要听一些人放X，说什么最珍贵的话不能常常说。狗X啦！难不成要等到全死光光了才说？

人不是机器，更不是神；不会读出你心里的情感。你会说，他/她应该是懂的。“应该”？为什么如此不确定？要让他/她知道你的心啊！现在说不出口，一个耽误了，就怕下一秒不是你再也没机会说就是他/她没机会听！不要等到真的失去的时候才来后悔！后悔，绝对是笨蛋才会做的事！

不要让自己有任何对家人后悔遗憾的事。那绝对是最笨的事！不要理所当然的以为他们知道你爱他们，对家人，爱就要大声说出来！

你相信吗？

在爱情的国度里，身高不是距离、体重不是压力、学历，年龄不是问题，你相信吗？

“你好年轻。。。，跟你比起来，我老咯。”（那就自动消失吧？难不成要我送你一程？）

“你是熟女，就等于是obasan咯，哈哈哈。”（这样吗？被我看上的你应该要更感动啊？）

“你太瘦了，跟你在一起，人家还以为我虐待你。”（。。。这是纯心找碴不是吗？嗯？）

“你太胖/壮了，跟你走在路上会很挡（别人）路吧？”（那好心你先说说你自己？龟笑鳖）

“你书读得这么烂，你觉得你配得上我吗？”（不要怀疑，看上你是你八辈子修来好福气）

“你太会读书了，我跟你在一起会有压力。”（难不成时光可以倒流吗？第一天认识我？）

“你好矮/娇小，带出门好奇怪/弯腰吻你好累。”（你可以不要吻啊！我又没逼你吻我？）

“你好高，吃矮一些啦！”（？你哪位？身高碍着你了哦；你是爱我这个人还是身高啊？）

“你太有钱了，我配不上你。”（难道你不觉得你赚到了？跟我在一起少奋斗30年耶<3）

“我们门不当，户不对，分手吧。”（太好了，去你的小猪圈里找你的白猪王子公主<3）

如果要分手，什么鬼理由都能用？

如果要在一起，那来这么多理由？

喜欢我不是喜欢我的人吗？为什么要介意我读的书比较多？我比较聪明并不影响我喜欢的你心情啊？又或者是，为什么要介意我书读得少，我爱你不就成了？难道要为了你那无谓的自尊心/虚荣心毁了我们？

我的身高无法改变呀！喜欢我就要连我的身高也喜欢啊！况且你又不是第一天认识我。我可以确信因为我不是你要的娇小而拒绝我必是你人生中最大的损失！又或者是，身高等于安全感根本是小女人和大男人的狭义短见。君不见高个模特儿们也快快乐乐的做人妻？介意身高其实是你的心理作用

白羊的我很盲目。我可以视而不见你的过老/过少/过胖/过瘦/过矮/过高/过笨还是太过聪明任何你认为是缺点的缺点。都不重要好不好？至少我看过聪明糊涂配、老少配、高矮配、胖瘦配！只要你自己过得了自己那一关，别人怎么看就一点都不重要了，不是吗？

Body and Mind are separated

070209

Alone, been "abandoned" by friends... "fly me pigeon" hahaha... think of calling someone, but gave up.

shopped happily - 1 pair of shoes, 1 dress, 1 gown ^^

070309

City Hall mrt stn - Nat; Orchard mrt stn - Nic; Takashimaya - nice 雕鱼烧 yummy

LV front door - Eileen, Wen; Taxi - Dempsey; Harry's - I wld try Harry's 1992 next time!

070409

0730 woke up (sickening) 0900 reached (the earliest) 1000+ photo shooting session starts! Esplanade - Court - CBD - NUS 0400 exhausted 0600+ Clementi 0700+ JP shopping session starts! 1000+ home, dear home

funny daily issue

063009

on my way back home, in the train, i had been pushed accidentally by an uncle who is unable to stand firmly when the train starts its pace. i was not angry but embarrassed as i fell onto a handsome Caucasian... let me faint ba!!!! shame shame!!!

Think Positively, Prepare Completely

在公司，要和善。笑，是必要的

在家里，要融洽。笑，是应该的

和朋友，要享受。笑，也是要的

可是，我开始。。。无法笑了

结果一直是暧昧不明

做CT scan了

没事啊

可是情况不允许我们放心

又做了blood test

还有gastroscopy

接下来呢？

一个接一个的结果

来一个了又等下一个

好累

自己吓自己

好累

我不想笑了

Damn it! We would NEVER ever give in!

May Buddha Always Bless Him

毕业典礼和晚会

062709

Received a cute gift - So pink So cute So feminine, I gonna use it whenever u're with me (let's 窘 together xD)

窘 (jiong) = embarrass

Ordered you a gift - lily, I'll wait for yours - rose!

花语录 http://www.seasoncity.com.tw/html/flower.asp

Flower of Aries http://www.seasoncity.com.tw/html/star.asp

Flower for Month of April - Rose 蔷薇

Flower for 15th April - FenOrchild 蘭花

Rose http://love.hinews.cn/page.php?xuh=19180

http://www.seasoncity.com.tw/html/rose.asp

Different websites, Different Meaning of Amt of Rose - Steady

count down 14 days!

Korean Bands

Super Junior - It's You (很自虐的歌，很自虐的我)

Big Bang - Lies

Big Bang - T.O.P. (born in 1987) 实在像我表弟

Bitchy but Juicy

If you are pretty, be bitchy

like them: 4 minutes http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qPfvJTG-sZw&feature=related

Bitchy might be irritating but Juicy, then Why not?

At least you wouldn't hurt my eyes, it's a good deed.

I prefer this band: 2NE1

If you are not pretty, work hard.

There is no ugly women in the world, but lazy women.

TOT

...TOTOTOTOTOTOTOTOTOT...

Love OT

but my body don't like

Love challenges

but 1 day of 24 hours is insufficient

Love money

but my spirit desires for a life enriched by love, family and friends

*Friend is going to London... so envy

Will I visit in the future? Yes if you pay me the air ticket...

So envy having rich daddy... ahahaha...

*Outings

Sometimes, it is boring to stay at home

Sometimes, it is boring to spend money outside the home

Sometimes, I am bored to everything

*Ceremony

There is a free dinner and dance event after commencement, shall I attend?

*Family

occupied my mind, always

EYESORE

uneasy

headache

stomachache

gastritis

whole body is in pain

frustrate

to my own issue

to family

irritated to stupid stuff

R u PIG? chewing so loudly??!! Don't you ever learn Dining Etiquette??

R u PIG? stop demand me doing such stupid stuff!

R u PIG? don't repeat your words!

R u PIG? listen carefully and I hate to repeat them over and over again!

R u PIG? Keep me a distance! I hate the PIG smell!

SHIT, bad mood spoilt everything!

Everything irritated me; Everything is EYESORE

真的真的很爱

打了通电话

台湾

为了不好的可能

有幸和方老师聊上了

却使心里更不痛快

更沉重

急于否认

但是

心里的阴霾挥之不去

心开始小沉重

相信不会走到最糟

相信他

相信力量（是无敌的，无坚不摧）

更相信它（它一定会帮！只要他听话）

我相信他绝对会陪我很久很久很久

我相信也知道

因为

现在的感觉

就像那时候

一样

May Buddha bless My beloved

colorful notes

魅力指數20%。姿色平平，魅力普通，但個性較矜持，且不善於裝扮。在陌生的社交活動中，你卻會理智地保持特有的老實、安靜和沉默寡言，從不輕易發表自己的立場，強烈地控制著自己內心的情緒，人們很難從你的表 情中分辨出你是喜悅還是無奈。所有的華彩，可能就是在這種控制中消失，使得異性的目光難以在你身邊停留。

so accurate?! *laugh

尽管生活是有崎区挫折, 但你总有办法克服, 顺利渡过! 你遭遇过的措折比一般人多. 你曾经接触过一些难相处的人, 没道理的规定和不和谐的人际关系. 你对爱情的态度就像太阳表面一般热情高温. 当你被很多烦人的事困扰的时候, 你要不就是非常镇定的静观其变, 要不就是以领导者的姿态出现叫大家都闭嘴! 你觉得一个人去看电影没什么大不了. 反而想不通为什么有些人非要有人陪 才肯去看电影. 你感到自在, 不论是一个人独处或处在人群当中. 你对你的父母不很满意但又无法改变他们. 你会是个很好的情人. 如果你能在万人之中找到和你极为相配的人. 不然的话, 你和恋人的关系总是不能持久或痛苦结束. 你可能已经和一个你并不爱的人在一起太久了. 生活就像在坐云霄飞车一样, 你总是想尽办法让生活过得更加如你所愿. 你要不就是个运动迷, 要不你就曾经嚐试过禁药.

Ya lo ya lo, those in red highlight are so "accurate"! Bullshit! My live is too ease and relax; the people surrounding me are friendly and easygoing (just like me); I am not a 24-hr generator; I hate going to theatre alone; I love my parents and I can change them, if I want; The last thing I will do is exercise and wtf is 禁药? Drug?! So "accurate" ahahaha....

你適合找你年齡稍大的朋友(3～ 6歲)。 你意志堅強，沒有依賴心理， 但有點神經過敏，過於操心，常感到困惑。 你適合找一個年齡稍大，常能幫助人拿主意的人。 起初你不能理解對方的心理， 但隨著相處時間的增長，就會心安自然。

智者創造機會~勇者把握機會~...人稱為愚者為等待機會~~

happy hour

time zone difference between UK London and Singapore

Singapore is 7 hours ahead of UK London.

061909

550+ out. 620 dinner. 720 still figuring out whr r we. 750 gav up. 800+ met joanna, ray, aisha, city, sheron in SMU boardgame cafe. left. raffles city mall - burger king

Anh Na Nguyen, Yang Ke, Xu Ke, Ken - great nite

快乐可以很简单

There is only one moon to the Planet earth, so no such nonsense: 外国的月亮比较圆.

Geek: from the standpoint of astronomy, it may be possible...

Noob: aiya, it is just an analogy lol... you may gain more "what you want" if you go overseas. Don't you hear of this idiom, 读万卷书不如行万里路, noob lei you!

Geek: ...

A word from the one you concern worth more than millions

Geek: Honestly, it is too theorectical and unrealistic...

Noob: (headache) Romantic, do you know this term? As long as you care, you will be happy even it is just a simple word. You noober!

Geek: ...

Luckily I finished my drama series

Luckily I stayed late in the night

Hohohohohohoho....

note: sick dao fannnnnzzzz

Side effects

Cycle of Illness

Stage 1: Sore Throat

Stage 2: Coughing

Stage 3: Sniffing

Stage 3.5: Running nose

Stage 4: Nose block

Stage 4.5: feverish

Stage 5: Lying on bed

Dman it, now is progressing till Stage 4!

And Damn again, put on weight!!! and height?!!

ahaha...

家人家人

061109 West Coast Plaza, Sushi Tei

超好吃，超热闹，超饱！！！(It is a BIG news if you hear me saying I'm full)

Japanese Oiishi Bakery's Orea Cheese Cake is not bad

不成功，就成仁！？

061209 Plaza Singapura, Kyoto Sabo Ajitei

你很幸运，你比我们更早了解孝道的重要性

我经历过几乎失去的恐惧，很多事、很多话是不能等的；错过了，你或那个人就再也没有机会了（茶）

你会很成功

我也正在努力当中（笑）

你还是那么执着

我一直都是（悲）

我说，你一定会活到我结婚生子做阿嫲！

没有人可以没经过我同意就将你带走

我不准

我说过了

你会活到我结婚生子做阿嫲

你会拥有你想要的一切

给我时间

我会给你一切

给我时间

记住，我绝对不准任何东西带走我最珍贵的他们

我说过了

我不准

要保住我爱的人

我会毁掉一切

就算是他或她们

善意的警告？

She said, your priority shouldn't be there

I concur. 

She said, you should focus on IT. 

I concur too. 

She asked, then why you are doing that?

As I didn't receive any of IT. 

He told you about IT, right?

Ya, he did. (But never give me full picture even I asked cauz' he knows none of IT too)

I hope you know that you are here for IT. 

Yes, I am. (from the very first day)  

I also hope to see the result. 

Yes, I understand. (wholly, completely understand)

I start worrying when I see none of your news.

Yes, I know. (I asked for work, but he said he don't know how to give me IT, HOW?)

You shouldn't do it. 

I see. OK, I will only focus on IT now. (Both of them told me placing IT on the top of list, then do that when you have time. Apparently, I have time to do that when they didn't give me IT)

He should be the one doing his work, not passing to you. 

Oh, I see. (I don't know it. Even if I know, I don't think I can reject. You know, I am just a junior)

Oh my pretty, I concur totally. 

Wish you could understand my difficulty. 

Anyway, I would work it out! 

MOVE ON and GO FOR IT!

NO MERCY!!!

Fight for the Victory

不正常的我

从小，为了成为最好的，为了成为父母的骄傲

考试要在一二三名内；比赛不是第一就是要第二。优等，特优，头衔，奖状，奖金

得到最后的胜利就是努力追逐最好的犒赏，也学习了如何苦中作乐、尽情享受追逐的过程

我总是全力以赴，也总是势在必得

“只有我不要的，没有我得不到”

说来不好意思，可这就是我从小到大，从小学直到进大学都一直保持的乐观态度

不懂为什么我会聊到这个，这并不是重点

重点是，我在追逐的过程中可能无意间伤害了一些人

我不会为我的行为辩解

我也不懂如何辩解

懂我的人不需要我解释

但是

我还是要向你（们）说声

抱歉

不是不想给

只是我太笨

我知道不是每个人都有耐性

对着一个如此不正常的我（无奈）

很抱歉

我最不想伤害的人就是你（们）

或许我们不会再联络

我还是希望你能快乐

你应该要多笑一些

Sinful Week

060109-060709

Monday - Club Chinois @ Orchard Parade Hotel

Wednesday - Orchard

Thursday - Orchard + Priceless dinner

Friday - Silk Road @ Amara Hotel + Marina Bistro @ Tuas Yacht Club (=Raffles Marina Sailing Club)

Saturday - Mini-buffet

Sunday - Banquet

Indigestion...*wahahaha*

Next week = KEEP FIT.... (_ _)

Gals Hang-Out at Orchard

060309

Hang out with my dearest girls; had our dinner @ NYDC. Wheelock Place. Orchard. 

Then chit-chat in TCC of Orchard. *we are really TCC loyal customers* Just too bad I have to leave first

I received the great birthday gifts from dajie!!! 

Never doubt it, my greatest gift of Singapore is both of you gals. 

May Buddha bless us, forever

Gucci & LV @ GSS

Pic retrieved from Google search

LV monogram canvas Speedy 30

GSS is in the town. Last night (060409) I accompanied my sister to Orchard Takashimaya and Paragon. We visited 1 LV and 2 Gucci outlets.

Gucci is giving about 30% discount for its sale items during this crazy GSS period. So, how much does one bag cost? After discount, it is about SGD600++.

Haiz... so ex. Then not to mention that LV which is no sale, ALWAYS. Its cheapest bag (refer to those handbags and shoulder bags) will cost one at least SGD1K.

LoL, crazy. But I am crazy for it. LoL

After it, we rushed back to Boon Lay for the sake of a meal. A priceless meal. So it is worth it.

Silk Road @ Amara Hotel

Pic: retrieved from Google search

I had a casual business meal today (060409). It is a prompt lunch appointment. But we managed it well.

For the convenience, we went to Amara Hotel which is the nearest presentable point to our office. There is a restaurant called Silk Road in the hotel. Like Club Chinois, it is a fusion-style restaurant but tendency is more towards to Asian-oriented.

Again, nice place nice food nice people

不要作茧自缚

“很多事情是自己不愿想开。其实真要想开的话，一秒钟就想得开了。”

深有同感

但是

泥足深陷

无法自拔

想

亡羊补牢

回头是岸

只是

欲盖弥彰

于事无补

继续

作茧自缚

都是

自作孽，不可活

Ranking

In different stages of one's life, one takes seriously on the same or different thing. 

Kinship, Career, Relationship and Friendship; these 4 categories are mostly discussed. 

060309 (Wed) I have a new ranking for this, again. 

As I told my gals, I will achieve

Thanks dajie, thanks for sharing / illustrating ur 5-yr plan with us

It really impressed me 

I would move further, asap

once I settle down

互相伤害

不要

把脸藏在月光背后
有谁在意我们的生活
坐在安静角落
该为这一刻找个解脱

不要
你眼里伪装的内疚
该是自己幸福的时候
静静地想一想
谁会追求刻意的温柔
你伤害了我
还一笑而过
你爱的贪婪我爱的懦弱
眼泪流过 回忆是多余的 只怪自己 爱你所有的错
你伤害了我 还一笑而过 你爱的贪婪我爱的懦弱
眼泪流过 回忆是多余的 刻骨铭心 就这样的被你一笑而过

心碎千百遍 任谁也无法承担 想安慰自己的语言
你伤害了我 还一笑而过 你爱的贪婪我爱的懦弱 眼泪流过 回忆是多余的 只怪自己 爱你所有的错
你伤害了我 还一笑而过
你爱的贪婪我爱的懦弱眼泪流过 回忆是多余的 刻骨铭心 就这样的被你一笑而过

刻骨铭心 就被你一笑而过

My Karma...

OT till 10PM

Jun 2, 2009 

General Motors is filed to bankruptcy. 

Cryler does, too. 

What a "nice" Tuesday to the world economy

Happy Monday 060109

Pic retrieved from Streetdirectory.com

I heard of Monday Blue, but I haven't experienced it. 

Today I had my first lunch with my pretty female manager and senior. We had a simple meal in Burger King. 

That is a really enjoyable and relaxing lunch. We chit-chatted and gossiped. I got a great news about Energy Taiwanese artists but I couldn't reveal it as I promised. But it is a real shocking news. Haha... 

Then I had a walk to NBC department, meeting up with two ladies where one of them is really interesting and fun. Beside knowing more business, I grab the chance to know more employee benefits in GE. It is really a great trip, so far. 

In the night, I had the chance to have a dinner with those playing an important role in GE businesses. All of them are coming from different countries - China, Hong Kong, Korea, Japan, India, US and etc. It is really a kind of international gathering?! We had our great fusion fine-dining dinner in Club Chinois which is located in Orchard Parade Hotel. It is a real prompt dinner invitation by my lady boss. I was surprised and honestly I could feel the gastristic after I responded her. I was nervous, worrying that making myself a fool in front of those 大腕们. Fortunately, they are very nice. I had a good chat with them. And really enjoy talking with them, it is really a great experience. How I wish I could attend the coming meetings with them and other external parties. Well, greedy me =p But nvm I would take step by step. I know I will. Overall, I really appreciate it and feel thankful to my lady boss for this very first experience of business dinner. 

note: Today I got a good news from my lady boss too ^^ 

Omg, I really enjoyed this rare Monday!!! So many great things happened!

Conclusion of the day: Nice food Nice place Nice people

Morale of the day: Never envy others; Cauz' you would never know there is a Better one awaits you! I have more and more faith in myself!! 

Secret of Success!

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bo liao nia

痞子英雄

“我们不要开始；你的起点在英雄那，不在我这。” - 陈在天vs陈琳

“我知道你心里在想什么。只要在你难过，在你想哭时，不要把我推开，就够了。” - 吴英雄vs陈琳

“我不值得你这样，因为。。。我一直在等她。” - 陈在天vs陈琳

“如果是家人的话，谁都不可以先离开。” - 何小玫vs陈在天

“我会保护你的。我再也不要让我在乎的人离开我了。” - 陈在天vs篮西英

Nice song recommendations:

Perfect Stranger

放逐爱情 

无赖正义

********************To Remember*******************************

Had a good chat with you

I am unchanged, you said

No matter how much I change, internally or externally

I am still the same when I am with you, you said

I knew you praisin me 

but, from past till now

I am still unchanged

when everyone is changing

is moving on

everyone... 

You should move on, too, you said

I am moving on

Ya, but you left one, you said

“你的执着帮助你成功，但它也困住你了”, you said

Perfectionism 

Perseverance

Pathetic?

I never regret any decisions I made

Only once

Cauz' of fear of unexpectation 

Most painful 

That's enough 

Now I am fearless

If I have one more chance

I will leave no more regret anymore

Never

note: Listening "Perfect Stranger"

听得懂吗？不懂代表你不了我

我很讨厌大道理。可是，妈妈却说我很会也很爱说大道理。

会吗？我不过是把我所想以我认为最简单易懂的词汇表达出来和她分享罢了。

妈妈说我把事情复杂化了；想得太多、太艰深。。。是我思想奇怪？还是我们频率不同啊？

爱是无私的。听起来很恶心，可是却是我向往的。世人不论掩饰得多好，他们的爱都是带有条件的。除了我妈妈对我的。不要求任何有形的回报，我的幸福，健康就是她最大的满足。

她的爱宠坏了我

哈

我说，为什么人们不能怀着一颗无私的心去爱人帮助人呢？就像妈妈。

她说，她真怀疑我只有15岁。（那时她还没完全了解我的论点就爱打岔下定论，坏习惯要不得）

妈妈说，不要把全天下的人和她相提并论。一种米养百种人，这个论点我懂的。可是，我却相信只要教育，人是能有所进步的。就像可以从人猿进化成人类，人是能不断进步的。人不应该在道德思想上停止探索。人类有再教育的必要。君不见日本美国世界各地乱枪扫射的疯子一堆吗？就像唐三藏为了普度众生点化世人而愿意舍身往西方取经，不就是希望借由宗教的力量引导众人走向正途？人们需要一定程度的指引。

我不要求外人能做到对人人无私。有否做到，也不管我的事。要打诨过日子还是潜心进修看个人。残忍一点的说，别人好坏我管不着，也没空管。只是对家人，我希望我们能更接近完美。可是或许对家人而言，我是个严以律人律己的人吧。

呵

或许有人会反驳我说“我从来都不会要求回报”呢？

可是这是真的吗？扪心自问，当他不能不想或不要帮你的时候，你是不是会忍不住想，甚至说出口，“早知道以前不要这么帮你，爱你。。。等等等？”

还是你会忍不住对我辩解，“如果他有良心，他当然应该要对我好一点或怎样怎样。。。？”

原谅我的不以为然（嗤笑）。其实这些类似懊恼，索求的话语对我来说就已经是一种变相的要求回报。我不怀疑当你在付出的时候，你可能真的没有想过要得到什么回报。你是真心的。

但是，人是贪心的，也是偏执的。。。

“我以前这么帮他！现在叫他帮个小忙也没办法？！亏我当初还不辞辛劳竭尽所能得帮他打点一切！”

扭曲的心。。。

以恩报恩，是美德。可是，一种米养百种人，人人性格皆有所不同因而造就了大千世界里的差异、纷乱、奇特和异彩。有多少人会有如此美德？一个人会不会因为你对他/她的好而有所感动从而回报你是说不准的。因为你不是他，你不懂他是不是一个有美德的人。你怎么能期待他的回报呢？当他没有如你所愿的回报你时，你是否还要为了这样一个没有美德的人而扭曲了你原该是不求回报的一颗真挚的心？

哦，来个小小反驳。妈妈就说，就因为一种米养百种人，你更不应该去要求别人变成你想要的。

是这样吗？就像我前面提到的，我不是硬性要求，只是好奇，如果能让自己的心灵更上一个层次，不好吗？不断进步或许是我的致命伤？

哈

罗罗嗦嗦了一大串，我想说的只是，家人之间，爱人帮助人都应该是出自最真诚的心意，而不带任何附加条件。人情，是做给外面的人看。真心，是给里面的人感受。会不会感恩图报是看个人修为，不要因此污了自己的一颗纯正的心。不要求回报的爱往往才会得到最大的回报。

妈妈，你是最大赢家！

哈

应该是个胆小鬼吧

没有安全感

或许应该说对这里的人没有信心吧

（以前的打击太大？哈！）

要很多很多的保证

口头上的

行为上的

要一直不厌其烦、不断不断的一再保证

给的是一百八仙不含防腐剂不含人造味素纯天然的心意

就像妈妈

看来

我真的是

被宠坏了？

哈！

这一秒我有点自厌

本来嘛，决定了一件事，但是回响并不是很好，那就拉倒作罢。

算了~

起初

妈妈很担心

姐姐们也说搞不懂我

朋友们也在敲边鼓

现在

都说只要我开心

可是

问题是

我要怎样才会开心？

我做什么我都不满意

我说什么我都不爽快

我连我自己在想什么都觉得烦

我真的是。。。

被宠坏了吧？

哈！

Desire

I do what I like to do

precondition: No one is hurt

So I assume

no one has the right to judge me

Only me

I do what people do not dare to do

You can learn from me

but no right to critic me

Hypocrites 

=]

新的梦想

23岁前，我人生里绝大多数的梦想都一一实现了。。（唯一一个还没实现的，我会继续努力）

小学，中学一路顺遂（老实说根本是为所欲为，横行霸道）、进入理想中的理工学院就读我想读的科系、再理所当然的迈向新加坡最高等学府，然后顺利毕业。

同时也完成了爸爸的梦想-所有女儿都是大学生（我们比很多人的儿子都更有出息！！！）

也在23时，实现了我另一个重要的梦想-带我爸妈出国旅行。虽然很重本，但是我知道在未来忙碌的工作将我压得喘不过气时，我会骄傲的告诉我自己我那时做了一个明智的决定。

可以说，我前半段的人生梦想都完成了。现在24岁了，我需要新的人生梦想！

梦想和规划一样吗？

我会说，虽然一个听起来较不切实际，但是本质上是一样的。

“人的一生是由一个梦想的完成再连接另一个新的梦想构成的。”

我会实现所有的所有

在我想清楚到底什么是我的终极目标

Stop the Prank

4 May

You did successfully attract my attention. 

My attention with anger

If this is the way of getting closer to me

Like what they said

Nut

But

Thanks for your prank

I had a "great" moment

I "enjoyed" the feeling of fear

I learned a lesson

Be more considerate 

LoL boring nia

3 May

4th sister's colleagues didn't mention that our 2nd sister is pretty after viewing our family photo although 2nd sister is the prettiest that 4th sister and I regard.  

To be fair, we shall compare all sister at same age e.g. 22? Haha, then we can tell that elder and 2nd sisters are prettier than others.

Am I possessive?

我的心情就像是坐云霄飞车般，忽高忽低的阴晴不定。

Dear MNC (you know who) still keeps me waiting. ^^ NVM, let's see who will be the final winner! "SoB"!

Dear part time (you know who too) delayed my time being together with my beloved. ^^ NVM, NVM, I am adult. NVM.

When I reached home, I was watching my beloved sleeping soundly with my little niece. It is a blessing; a peaceful mind is filled in me...

I was waiting for her waking up...

But I was sent to complete a task; a responsibility that shouldn't be mine but seemingly to be done by me only. It further killed my precious time. I know I am getting irritated. 

... Family Occasion's Merry

Why I can only see how busy my mum is and how messy my lodging that I cleaned in last night is?

(You are not in the right mood)

Why I gave in so easily to nephew's tantrums, why I felt sorry to him at that moment? 

(You are stupid)

Usually I supposed to enjoy playing computer games with my little cute nephew and niece. But now, I felt pissed only. 

I've had it enough =)

DBB said I am not possessive. But I doubt it. =( 

The mood is getting better after I mopped the floor. Perhaps, exercise is the best method to appease anger. Viewing those grand family pictures, enjoying our happy look, I know I am not angry anymore. 

Hope to share with you my pictures soon. 

Or I shall keep them privately as my talisman. 

A talisman to appease my sudden anger

Motorbike Robbery

Happening

Wendy, Candy, Marcus and I went to Causeway Point for gift collection. For the sake of Genting ticket booking, we went into JB. Then 3rd BIL went to meet his friend for a while. It is already around 830pm when we finally reach the destination for our dinner. 

Typical nasi brani embedded with fragrant beef and chicken rendang, BBQ and ice kacang enriched with a thick layer of coco powder, this is a real sinful bouquet to me! While we were enjoying it, I saw a waitress screaming with a frightened expression. Looking towards the direction she pointed at, a motorbike with 2 persons swiftly drove off. Behind it, a woman was lying down on the floor. The first word popped out from my mouth at the first moment is "SHIT!!!"

A robbery happened in front of me! 

Although her property is safe, she got a slight injury on her elbow, it is still Ridiculous! The robbers are really too much! The road where they tried to commit crime is just besides our hawker centre! It is really too much! 

WBD! 

Conclusion: JB is really not suitable for living... (sigh)

最甜美的果实

Why does the path towards the success always 一波三折??

Never mind

Never mind

I am telling myself

It doesn't matter, really

I am telling myself

I love challenges

I love to overcome the obstacles

The more difficult the process

I have gonna go through

The more tiring the effort

I have gonna pay

The sweeter the fruit of success

I would obtain

Eventually

Knowing

Cast by Nicholas Cage, Knowing is the best movie describing the potential natural disaster human being gonna face in the future, perhaps, near future. 

A little girl who predicts the disasters within 50 years where all her messages are given by those kind aliens. She played a role to convey the warning of those kind-hearted non-human being... But no one knows.

In the end of the story, our beautiful planet - the Earth is destroyed by the powerful solar wave. Those kids who have been chosen by aliens are sent to another beautiful planet - a beautiful hope given by writer...

As if it would happen!!

For sure, Natural Disasters would happen sooner or later. All are triggered by destruction of human being that have done a lot on the planet. Human being would not have a good ending like what writer of Knowing "hopes" - kids continue the story of human being... No way!!! Human being would extinct like those species which exist once on the planet. (You think, aliens are so free to lend their hands?) Perhaps, it is the "harvest" time of human being for their "long-time effort" on the Earth. Pitiful but beautiful Karma time... =] Honestly, if the day comes, I would say, human being deserve it.

Hope you get the warning from this movie, too - Cherish our planet

Before watching this movie, I just have a talk with mum. Telling her, the end of the world is coming, why are we still pursuing fame, wealth and worrying about those unimportant in our life? I would rather spend time with them before the end of the world. She laughs non-stop in the phone. I love it. And because of it, I sincerely hope that Karma on human being wouldn't happen too fast. Let me enjoy my mum's laughter a little more time... 

May Buddha bless Everyone Else...

GE

努力了未必有收获

不努力一定没有收获

I would never give in

I would never give up

I am your best choice

and

You are my best choice, too

I have faith in you

Please give me yours, too

I am having a happy birth-week but...

Except Monday, I am fully booked >___<

But

I am having a slightly bad mood

真是的

唉

By the way

I wanna watch Knowing!!!

=D

movie movie movie

Dragon Ball - the most interesting parts > whenever 周润发 appears

Confessions of the Shopaholic - great!!

Look forward to Shijoku, Knowing, & Transformer II

I am a coward

I am a coward

Timid!!!

Sick of IT!!!

胆小鬼！！！

就只会嘴炮！！！

To HH

是爱情还是执著蒙蔽了你的双眼？ 

为什么认定她是你的唯一？

是爱情让你放不下？

还是不甘心？

难过自己的努力没有得到回报

所以不舍得放弃？

爱情不是1+1=2的公式

更不是读书

有努力就有回报

何必在乎她所说过的那些“甜言蜜语”

何必在乎她隐瞒背后的故事？

那只不过是你自己给的缓期徒刑

帮她找理由

帮自己找借口

给自己一个好死吧

接受事实

放下，再出发

有舍必有得

或许你会获得意想不到的

不要被自己的执著害了

封闭自己的心

只为了一个你以为是你的真爱的假象

若干年后

你会发现

为了她所受的伤心，委屈，难过

都是微不足道

都只是成长的一小部分

加油，你真的值得更好的

EQ

Whenever it involves you, I lose control.

Regardless how many curse and swear apply on me, I don't mind.

*不重要的人说的话能有多重要？

But once they apply on you...

Let's wait and see how much I can tolerate 

*就像你心疼他们对Wendy所出的恶言，我也有同感

Tolerance

Tolerance

Tolerance

Tolerance

Tolerance

...............................

Ludicrous!!!!!!!

*不过是正巧我们流着同样的血

Cauz' of this relation, I tolerant till today since 2002.

CHAOS

CHAOS

CHAOS

It is just an issue of TIME

我的人生：

爸爸，妈妈，姐姐，好友和未来爱我和我爱的人

乱七八糟的你们不要搅乱了我人生里的人们

I've had it enough!!!!